Couple T-shirts / jung hoseok(#17)

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"Do you want to continue dancing?" It has been a while since I have heard that question, my CEO asked me that 3 months ago when I came over to his office on his demand and I was forced to go even though I needed to go somewhere else, I had a family dinner to go to and I had to cancel it just for my boss.

He told me that because he had a plan for me, he wanted me to pursue acting and give up on dancing as my full-time career, he said that there isn't much time for me to display all of my dancing abilities before I am too old to be on the stage and to dance without having to break a bone.

He told me to either pursue something new than to continue doing what I love, it doesn't matter that I will get noticed or not if I continue to dance but there are a lot of talented people these days and people love to see fresh faces taking control of the stage instead of a nearing 30-year-old man dancing his old fashioned dances that have long gone out of trend.

Young people these days would rather look at someone more promising to them and younger than an old seasoned street dancer turned idol which only gets mentioned for his past achievements along with his group and what his group has done the past few years as a global sensation with their unique music and members that can produce songs and choreograph dances very well.

So it would be better than I take a break from dancing and try something new that will eventually benefit me in time to come, if I were to put in my blood, sweat and tears in it, not because I had no choice but to give myself one more chance to show  my boss, everyone that I am still capable of doing things even if it is my first time doing it. And with my leg injury, I probably would injure myself again and it might be even worse than before.

Patching things up with Taehyung also helped me a lot on getting my act together, I shouldn't have only thought of myself and not thought of the others around me. I was being selfish and that affected Taehyung who was so ready to show everyone what he had prepared and I just had to take it away from him at the same minute, I only realized how evil I was when I had the time after dinner that night and I took a stroll in the park with Taehyung where I had a very long talk with him.

I spoke about anything and everything that I have bottled up in my heart and I even cried in front of me, something that I definitely wouldn't do, I don't even like showing my true feelings to anyone in the first place. He apologized to me many times while crying at the same time, struggling to speak while his mucus keeps flowing out.

I couldn't blame him either, he was really upset at that point of time and the little devil inside of him just decides to make an appearance, he just wasn't himself as he was too angry to even realize what he was trying to do to me. By the time he came back to his senses, I was already on the floor, screaming in pain as I had fractured my ankle and I would be crying over the news that I will not be able to dance on a professional level. So the chances of me ever returning back to the stage are nearly zero and the only way to stay in the industry is to try something new which I am doing now, as the main lead for my first drama.

I looked towards Wendy. "Right now, I am not really sure." I paused for a moment as I was hesitant to continue my words. I have just decided on this just today and it has been a very hard decision for me to consider me but ultimately I think that I have done the right choice and I hope that everyone would support my decision.

Am I going to give up my dream? I think that I have, if there is something hindering on what I loved to do and it is not advisable to carry on, it is better for me to give up now. "Wendy, I--"

"Ok! Break's over, let's get to our positions!" SeokJin's voice echoed through the entire room and I lost the opportunity to talk to Wendy about this, this is one of the only times where she would be alone and when there are lesser people around to hear our conversation.

I guess that I will tell her that later when the time is right. "Get back to acting... I'll see you after the shoot, concentrate and do your very best." I walked back, looking towards her who is now rehearsing her lines for the final time before she goes for a take.

She definitely has something that she wants to tell me and I have no idea what it will be, she has been looking at me with those eyes who wants to tell me something but it is not a good time to talk about. She hasn't been really happy ever since she found out that she had to take upon a cameo role which now transited to a pivotal character who will either love or hate her character.

She is acting as the antagonist alongside SooJung which she doesn't have a good past with her, no one can look that happy if they are around the people that they hated and she is also pressured by the role that she is taking upon, she is juggling two jobs and she is clearly struggling with it. Why did SeokJin still want her as an actress when she is already so busy as a scriptwriter?

I looked towards Wendy who is now looking into the camera while the hair and makeup department focus on getting her to look right for the shoot, SeokJin hyung is advising them on how she should look on the screen and what she will be doing for her scene.

I have an answer to this question now, I don't want to continue dancing, I want to be an actor just like you, who is always so devoted to acting and having such high skills to act my character as close as possible. I want to become like you, Son Wendy.