Couple T-shirts / jung hoseok(#17)

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HoSeok

I looked towards the busy scriptwriter who is rushing back to her well air-conditioned waiting room which is also used for the scriptwriter to write her scripts and she gets ready for her role as well, Wendy has a double job in this production and she works as a scriptwriter and a actress as well, though she is only going to act for this production and she is not going to act ever again.

I admire that she works two jobs at the sand time and she is incredibly good at doing well at both jobs, it is like she is talented at everything that she does and she isn't messing up anything at all. I am working as two jobs as well but I am not good at both of them, I used to be very good at dancing and I was even crowned as one of the best dancers in the industry but those days were long gone now. 

I don't think that anyone even acknowledges me as a good dancer in the industry and so my popularity as a K-pop idol has went downhill ever since our group reached the 7th year milestone of career, the 7th year in any idol group would meant that they would disband or end their individual contracts with the company, and thus leaving the company and the group.

It is a very bad year for all idol groups, regardless of gender and company, only a handful of them get to stay in the industry with their original members and their popularity will start to go downhill and the newer groups will slowly climb up the rankings and set a new standard for themselves and for the industry.

My group is over that phase now but we are the lucky ones who had all of our members still working with the company but we have all ventured to the different areas of the industry, the ones who can produce like Yoongi hyung and NamJoon are all working in the company as their producers and they produce a lot of songs for anyone who wants to hire them, JungKook is becoming a film director and he is already creating small films just for his passion, JiMin is making money as a soloist while producing his own songs and Taehyung and SeokJin hyung who are good in acting have already established themselves as good actors and now SeokJin hyung is the director of the drama that I am starring in just because of how good he is. And there's me, the lackluster member of the group who used to be good at dancing until I sustained a permanent injury which prevents me to dance professionally and that pretty much ended my chances of becoming big in the industry.

The drama that I am doing right now is a gamble for me to get popular again in my late twenties and increase my popularity, and making sure that I don't get forgotten by my fans who used to like me before. I only have one chance and I have to cherish it well before I ruin it with my own two hands, I know that I can do it as a actor but it wouldn't be as great as Taehyung and SeokJin hyung.

"Hoseok? Jung HoSeok!" I heard the sound of the megaphone calling my name and I looked towards the direction of it, SeokJin hyung was using them to get my attention and it pretty much worked. "Are you alright? You haven't been paying much attention ever since shoot started."

I diverted myself back to the shoot that I am doing today, I didn't realize that I was zoning out so much until this moment, I was looking at Wendy so much all day that I forgot about everything else, that is how much Wendy has an impact on me. "Right, sorry about that. I'll focus from now on." I apologized to him and the rest of the crew.

"Why don't we have a 15 minutes break now? I have just received news that my fellow member Taehyung have just sent a food truck and it is just parked outside, there is hot chocolate and churros. Please be back at set in 15 minutes." He placed the megaphone and everyone started to make their way outside where the food truck is situated at, he didn't go along with them to the food truck but instead made his way towards me. "Hey, what's on your mind?"

Even though we have lived together for more than a decade before, I still can't bring myself to tell him my deepest thoughts and definitely not what I have been thinking about earlier, he is going to laugh at me for sure judging from his personality. "Nothing much, I just didn't sleep enough last night."

"Is it because of Wendy? Don't try to deny it, I caught you staring at her the entire time whenever she comes out from her waiting room." He told me and I immediately fell silent, I really can't lie to anyone because I am really honest to the point that my face would scrunch up whenever I tell a lie.

I nodded. "I was just thinking about the fact that she has 2 jobs that she does at the same time but she is able to manage them just fine while I am just struggling to act being told that I will never be able to dance professionally again."

"You only think that way because you have no idea how much she worked to be the person she is today? Do you know that you are the one who made her get hungry for passion after giving up on it years ago? If not for you, she wouldn't have written the script for the drama and you wouldn't have acted in it. If you think about it, the two of you helped each other to be  able to pursue your dreams, although your dream isn't to be an actor."

I smiled at him. "Well, I want to be one now. Can you teach me how to be a good actor, SeokJin hyung? I learn fast and I might impress the viewers with my improved acting." And to impress Wendy as well...