"we were looking forward to the rest of our lives."
The third book in the Feel series. Austin and Olivia are older now and have their entire lives in front of them.
"Olivia. Olivia!" I was woken up by someone shaking me and yelling my name. I opened my eyes and saw Randy standing over me with Parker and Izzy behind her. They were all crying, but finally looked a little relieved.
I looked around and noticed I was laying on Izzy's orange couch. I couldn't bring myself to look down but I knew I didn't have pants or underwear on. I looked back up at my friends who knew what happened to me.
I felt numb, I couldn't breathe well and I felt like a block of cement was weighing on me. I pulled a blanket over me and looked around the small apartment. Besides my phone being on the ground underneath the hole in the wall, nothing looked out of the ordinary. There was nothing that gave a hint that he hurt me.
My three best friends stared at me in disbelief, not knowing what to do next. We were all silent because none of us knew what to say. They stood there crying still and I wanted to, I felt like I needed to. Yet, nothing came out. I didn't feel anything.
"Olivia, I am so sorry," Izzy cried, sitting next to me. "I am so sorry."
"Don't be," I shook my head at her. As I spoke, I realized how dry my mouth is.
"We need to report him," Randy said as she sniffled.
"No," I told her calmly. "I told Izzy I would handle her situation and I think I did."
"Fuck that, Olivia!" Parker yelled. "You cannot seriously just let him get away with this!"
"My first priority is protecting the people I love," I said to them. "If it weren't me, it would've been Izzy."
"Olivia, it should've been," Izzy said with tear-filled eyes. "I am so sorry. I can't believe I left you here alone. I'm so sorry."
"Please stop apologizing," I nodded to her, pulling her in for a hug. "I don't remember any of it. He drugged me."
"That doesn't change anything," Randy shook her head, sitting on the other side of me. "He still did it and you still know. You're always going to remember that it happened."
"What about Austin?" I slightly changed the subject. "Does he know anything?"
"I made them promise not to tell," Izzy said to me. "Because you asked me not to say anything to him."
"Thank you, Izzy," I said, standing up off of the couch. I was still sort of high so I wobbled before gaining my balance. "He can't know. Please."
"He needs to know," Randy said, glaring at me while I picked my ripped shorts off the floor and slid them on. "You can't just let this go."
"If I don't let it go, I'll let it ruin me," I said to her. "Please, let's just forget about."
"Olivia, stop," Parker huffed. "Sometimes things are about you, okay? Stop trying to pretend what happened is okay, that it's not fucked up."
"I'm not pretending it's not fucked up, Parker!" I yelled at him. "But it fucking happened and I can't rewind it. Life is not like that stupid video game you play."
"We love you, O," Randy said, looking up from the couch. "We just want to protect you and make sure you're okay. You're the best friend any of us could ever had and when something like this happens, you have to know it tears us apart as well."
"I don't regret it," I told them. "I don't wish I wouldn't have came. I can't tell you how glad I am that I was here instead of you, Izzy."
"I'm so grateful for you, Olivia," She smiled slightly at me. "But you don't have to put yourself in danger because of my stupid decisions. I will never be able to make it up to you."
"That's the good thing about friends," I shrugged. "You don't have to make anything up to them."
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austin 💛 what are you guys doing?
austin 💛 you're probably asleep, text me when you get this babe
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I stared at the missed texts from Austin as I sat in the backseat of Parker's car with a Randy. I was so glad he wasn't awake yet. My phone screen was shattered but luckily still usable. I sighed as I started to type a message out to him.
liv 💛 Hey, sorry. I fell asleep early because I was so exhausted. We stayed in and watched Parker play video games while Randy and I got drunk until we passed out. I miss and love you so much! I can't wait to see you in a few hours.. and kiss your face.
We soon pulled up to Parker's house and I got out while they all stared at me. I was still shaken up but luckily, Lenny didn't actually hurt me. It could've gone much worse and I'm thankful.
I looked at Randy who still had such a sorrowful look on her face. I walked towards her and hugged her; she hugged me back instantly. As she started rubbing my back, I felt tears forming. They soon fell and after that, I couldn't contain myself.
I was a sobbing mess as Parker and Izzy also joined the hug, making me feel invincible and loved. No one in this world means more to me than they do. I squeezed them all tighter as Randy kissed my forehead, assuring me that she would protect me with all of her being. They all would, I know it.
"I love you guys," I sniffled through my tears. "I love you so much."
"We love you," Parker replied with a breath of relief. "We're going to get you through this, O. I promise. I know it won't ever be the same but we're here."
"That alone makes it better," I leaned my head on his shoulder now. "But please... don't tell Austin."
a/n: hi guys! so i know i took a REALLY long break but i am back now! i've had the hardest time in my life ever. i moved back to alabama from arizona in may. i was living with my aunt until i could find a place but before i could, she kicked me out so i was actually homeless for a while, sleeping in hotels and with friends. i'm good now though, finally. so that means i'm back to doing what i love. thank you guys for being patient with me. it means so much.
