"we were looking forward to the rest of our lives."
The third book in the Feel series. Austin and Olivia are older now and have their entire lives in front of them.
"Liv. Are you okay?" Austin asked as he sat beside me on the plane ride back home. "You haven't said a word the entire plane ride and barely anything when I picked you up."
"I'm sorry," I shook my head, pushing my thoughts to the back of my mind. "I'm just really tired."
"Okay," he smiled, kissing my forehead. "I love you."
"I love you more," I replied and then leaned forward, grabbing my book out of my bag. I leaned back and opened it to the page I was on.
"Eleanor and Park, huh?" Austin asked me and I nodded. "You said nothing's wrong."
"Something has to be wrong for me to read my favorite book?" I said, not looking at him.
"Well, yeah," he said, leaning away so I'd look at him. "Ever since you were like twenty, you've only read it when you're stressed or unhappy."
"I guess I have a lot on my mind," I sighed, closing the book and looking at Austin. "You're leaving for tour in two days for six months. I'm going to really miss you. I'll be alone in Seattle."
"You'll have Mochi," Austin said and I chuckled. "I know it's not the same. But hey, you can walk around naked and listen to your music I hate."
"Wow," I rolled my eyes as I laughed softly. "I hate your music as well."
"You like everything I listen to!" Austin scoffed at me.
"No, I meant your music," I looked at him and his jaw dropped.
"Okay, fuck you," he said and I laughed. Being around Austin made me forget everything. He consumed my mind and that's part of the reason I married him. No matter what happened, he made me happy. "That explains why you're not going on tour with me then."
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Austin and I arrived home finally. I felt safe.
As we walked into the door of our large, empty home, I turned to Austin and hugged him.
"I love you," he said against my lips as he kissed me. I smiled and kissed him back. "So very much."
He picked me up and carried me upstairs bridal style, pecking my lips along the way. When we got to our room, he pushed the door open and put me down beside the bed.
He kissed me gently, holding the back of my head and pulling me softly towards him. His tongue entered my mouth, tangling with mine. I pulled away and looked up at him.
"Not tonight," I told him and he nodded, placing a kiss on my forehead. "I'm tired."
"Sleepy?" He asked me, sitting down on the bed while I still stood. He took his shoes off then looked up at me, pulling me in front of him by my waist.
"Tired," I repeated as I reached my hands out to play with his hair. "Mentally exhausted."
"There's obviously something wrong," he said, looking up at me still. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to but I just vowed to be here for you for the rest of my life. Please let me know if I can help with anything."
"You can lay with me," I said, turning away and climbing into bed after pulling my shoes off.
He gave me a half smile and then climbed into bed behind me. His arm draped over me as I pulled the covers up.
"Whatever it is, I'm sorry," he said, kissing the side of my head. "But we'll pick up Mochi in the morning and she'll make everything better."
"Yeah, you're right," I looked back at him and smiled. "You make everything better, Austin."
"I just wish I knew what I made better," he sighed, rubbing my arm. "I don't want to leave you, Liv."
"I know," I said quietly, looking out the window that was in front of me.
"We just got married and I have to leave you," he huffed. "It's not fair."
"It'll be fine," I assured him, turning towards him so our faces were almost touching. "You're going to have an amazing time. I know it."
"But you," he said softly. "You won't be there. You'll be here and man, that fucking sucks."
"But we can FaceTime every night," I said, rubbing the side of his head. "And I'll get someone to live stream every show for me."
"You don't get tired of hearing the same songs?" He asked me with a smile.
"Never in a million years," I shook my head. "As long as you sing them, I'll listen."
"Thanks, Liv," he chuckled at me. "About L.A., do you still want to move back?"
"Let's just see where life takes us," I shrugged as best as I could while laying down. "I feel safe here."
"Safe? You don't feel safe in California?" Austin asked me with furrowed brows.
"Not like that," I lied quickly. "It just.. even though Seattle is huge, it feels more secluded than L.A.. I feel more myself."
"I'll go wherever you go," Austin said with a yawn. "Which, right now, I hope is to sleep."
"Goodnight, Post," I chuckled, kissing his lips. The kiss was soft. Our lips moved together painfully slow, sending chills all over my body. He pulled away finally and kissed my forehead.
"I also get to say that to you," he smiled before turning over, not bothering to change out of his flight outfit. "Night, Post."
I smiled to myself, thinking of how truly lucky I am. However, I couldn't shake the feeling that I'm hiding things from Austin. Because I am. I just have no idea how to tell him. I know how he'll react and he can't get into trouble. I can't let Austin lose what he has because of me.
