*book 1* The Nightmare They Call Life

Chapter 5

"You're a bitch, always have been and always will." Said my father. I sat there listening to all the crewel things he had to say to me and there was a lot.

"You're fat and ugly and I don't care about you, you deserve to die." That one hurt the most. I started crying.

He slapped me. I cried harder. He slapped me harder. I stoped crying.

My father had said all of those crewel things to me. I just let that sink in. As I was trying to process what he just said to me, he pushed me against a wall and started to kiss me. I closed my mouth as tight as I could. I didn't want him doing this. This isn't fair. Why me? Why did I have to go through the abuse and rape? Why me?

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Sky... Skylar...Sky...Wake up. Someone was shaking me. I opened my eyes to find him looking at me with concern in his eyes.

"Hey are you alright?" Ryan asked.

"Huh? What?" I started looking around really confused, like a lost puppy.

"Skylar you're freaking me out. Are you ok?"

"Yeah. Why?"

"Well you were screaming in your sleep and I wanted to make sure you were ok."

"Oh yeah. I just had a bad dream."

"Ok. If you want to talk about it I will bring laying right next to you."

"Ok."

I looked at the time and saw it was only 1:00am. I still have 5 more hours until I have to get up. I layed back down and tried to go to sleep, but I couldn't. I was afraid to. I was afraid that I was going to have another bad dream. I looked at the time one more time. 1:15am. Wow only 15 minutes had gone by.

"Ryan?"

"Yeah." He groaned sounding tired.

"Never mind you sound tired I'm just going to try to go back to sleep, sorry I bothered you."

He shot up really fast. "Skylar. You don't have to apologize to me. I'm here for you if you need to talk to me. That's what I'm here for."

"It was about my dream." I said looking down upon myself, feeling so low about myself.

"I'm here to listen if you need it."

"It was about my dad"

"Oh Skylar I'm so sorry."

"It was about the crewel things he has said to me and did to me."

He wrapped me around his arms and ran his fingers through my hair. Almost as if he was trying to tell me that he was here, to listen and be here for me. I felt safe and protected. I started crying. His arms wrapped around me tighter and he layed me down. We were cuddling now and I started crying harder at how he was reacting. He was being so sweet to me when I was having second thoughts about living or not. I felt like such a coward to have him be this sweet and I can't even comprehend my own thoughts half the time.

"Skylar?"

"Yeah." My crying subsided and it almost came to a halt.

"Look at me."

I looked at him and I was a little bit confused too.

"You are going to be ok. I'm not going to let anyone or anything come between us. I'm going to protect you like you are my sister. I'm going to make sure that asshole never comes anywhere near you."

"You're so amazing Ryan and I couldn't ask for anyone better than you."

"Go to sleep Sky, we have to wake up early tomorrow because we have to walk. My car is out of gas."