Lost • Taekook •

23

23 days adrift

i've gotten used to killing fish by now. at this point, the only thing that matters is our survival.

thankfully, the past few days have been cloudy so the sun beating down on us isn't a problem anymore. i never did like the sun anyway. it makes you sweat and your skin burn and causes you to feel more fatigued than you already are.

the wind picks up and i feel taehyung shiver against me as i lean against his "bed." i've managed to make the ledge where he's lying as comfortable as possible. a makeshift canopy hangs over it and i've piled as many clothes as i could salvage around taehyung's body for support. it looks shitty but it'll do. his comfort is my utmost priority.

another gust of wind blows across the deck, causing the flimsy cloth of the canopy to flap violently. taehyung shivers again. with difficulty, i get up and climb down to the cabin in order to find something warm and dry to drape over taehyung. he's already badly injured; catching a cold could be life-threatening.

i stumble clumsily into the bedroom, my feet dragging across the floor as if they're made of lead, and i paw through the drawers, hoping to find a jacket or a shawl. in the very bottom drawer, buried under piles of tattered pillow covers, i find an old blue sweater that i had gifted taehyung for our 6-month anniversary.

i pull it out, relieved to find it in perfect condition, and trace my finger over the woolen patterns. unable to control myself, i rub the soft material against my face, breathing in the scent of the flowery cologne that taehyung loved to use. 

my eyes begin to water at the nostalgic scent as i feel all the happy memories we shared rushing back to me. cliff diving, laughter, watching the sunsets, music. a tear leaks out of my eye.

i'm so sick of everything.

i'm sick of waking up to the smell of the sea every morning.

i'm sick of the nauseating rocking of the boat.

i'm sick of the constant fear of death.

i squeeze the sweater closer to my chest.

how did it all end up this way?