The House Of Games (BTS mafia) 18+

20. A kiss, a whip and a savior

Y/N's POV

It's been 3 days since they brought me in the infirmary in their basement after my last "episode"...

From time to time Seokjin comes to visit me and help me change my bandages.

He also brought me a lap top for me to spend my time since I'm not aloud to get out of bed for now.

I watch movies, tv shows, youtube to pass the time.

Of course he also brings food for me and this time since no one died I didn't found it necessary for me to starve again.

Although I have to talk to Hobi for what I did that night.

How the hell didn't I see him?

I almost broke his arm.

He's kind to me.

Although I trust no one he doesn't seem to pretend in front of me.

He's really observant and that can be a problem for me in the future but than again he didn't do anything to harm me in any way for now and he also gave me Ypi.

I tend to close myself from others because of how dangerous I am and can be but that doesn't mean that I'm ungrateful.

If it was Jimin maybe I wouldn't have felt that bad but Hobi didn't do anything to me.

I have to find a way to also deal with Fake face.

I dodged a bullet the other day.

He kept asking me sexual questions and I don't think it will end there.

But maybe I can end it.

He plays it hot and cold to make me "want" him even more.

It's an excellent plan if I had fallen for his games from the begging.

Unfortunately I can also see why they like these kinds of games.

The moment that a person falls so hard that is willing to do anything and everything is something that can be empowering and once you get to feel that it's really difficult to not want to feel it again.

I get why they do it.

I'm even okay with me being their target.

Because I've done worse to others.

And the worst thing is...

I don't remember everything from those moments.

Just little pieces each time.

Of course I learn everything later...

Fake face is a pretender...

Just like me and that makes him scary exactly like I am.

But...

He's exciting in a way.

Satan and his sadistic side though...

He's unpredictable.

I thought I knew what he was all about.

For example that day that I slashed my hands trying to calm down Satan wasn't...well...sadistic with me.

He did have some mild moments.

But it wasn't anything much...

And the sexual part.

Why don't I feel more intimidated by him when he's touching me?

Or getting on top of me?

What is it?