shattered heart | j.j.k

Dinner | 30

Y/N's POV:

"Ji Woo agreed to be my girlfriend. I have a girlfriend now."

My heart literally fell to the bottom of my stomach but I didn't let it show.  I wanted to break down and cry but I didn't.  I kept myself composed for Jungkook.  I could tell that the rest of the members were staring at me to see if I was okay, so I just smiled.

"I'm happy for you," I said smiling.  I genuinely was.  If happiness is Ji Woo, then I'm glad that he was able to be with her.  Taehyung gently squeezed my hand from under the table and I just squeezed back.

"Make sure to treat her well and be happy together."  I was telling him exactly what I wanted him to do if he were in a relationship with me.  'This isn't about you Y/N.'   "Take her on a lot of dates and have fun."

"Aww thanks Y/N."  Jungkook smiled back at me.  The way his cheeks got warm and his eyes carved into crescents when talking about Ji Woo made me feel pity for myself, but then again, he was happy and that's all that really matters.

As soon as I put my opinion out there, the rest of the members congratulated Jungkook, as if they were waiting for my permission.

"Good job maknae, you finally got her!"

"We knew you could do it, we're happy for you."

What they were saying weren't lies, they were genuinely congratulating him for getting the girl, but were still uneasy about her character.

"Aish guys, let's continue eating," Jungkook said blushing.

To be honest, I had lost my appetite.  I didn't want to eat anymore and that was quite rare.  But Jin had tried so hard to make these dishes, and especially after what I said, I kept forcing myself to eat.  Everyone but Jungkook had noticed my strange behavior, but I just reassured them with a smile.

In addition to losing my appetite, I didn't feel like talking much either.  People can pretend that they're okay, but there's a certain limit to that.  I had reached that limit and I couldn't make myself talk.  It was like there was nothing I could contribute to the conversation because I was focused on not making myself cry.

'Why am I so effected?  Did I like him that much?'   Those thoughts circulated through my mind during the whole party.  It made it so that I couldn't even enjoy myself.

"Hey, are you okay Y/N?"  It was Jungkook.  All of the other members behind him looked at me wide eyed.  

'No I'm not.'   "Ah, yeah, I'm okay.  Why the sudden question?"

"You just seemed off today.  Why didn't you talk as much or participate in the games a lot?"

'Because of you I'm acting differently.'   I just faked a chuckle.  "Jungkook, I ate a bit too much and I'm feeling bloated right now.  That's why I don't feel comfortable doing anything right now."  I said all those lies with a smile on my face.

"Ahhh, that makes sense," Jungkook said laughing.  "You shouldn't have eaten so much!"  He ruffled my hair and flicked my forehead gently.  After realizing my feelings, the small things he does around me becomes more noticeable.  They become more special in a way.

Behind him, I could see the members shaking their head and face palming at how gullible he is.

"You don't have to worry so much anymore Jungkook.  But if you don't mind, can I rest on the couch while you guys play the party games?"

I needed time to sort out my feelings and find a way to control them.  Possibly, get rid of them.

"Sure Y/N.  Don't exert yourself today if you're not feeling well."  Jungkook had changed a lot as I got to know him better.  Instead of being like the playboy everyone else know him as, he's actually a very kind, sweet, caring boy.  I guess that's why I started falling hard for him.

"Thanks Jeon."  I made me way to the living room and sat on the couch alone.  As I was about to take out my phone, I could see Taehyung walk towards me.

"Hey, you actually suffering from bloating or?"

"Yeah I actually am," I said, patting my full stomach.

"You sure it's not because of you know what?"

"I'm sure TaeTae, stop worry so much.  You need to take care of yourself too.  I'm just happy that he's able to be with Ji Woo now."  Part of it was true, and part of it was a lie.  I couldn't be happy knowing he was with Ji Woo, that would be too big of a lie. 

"Okay Y/N, I'll believe you.  You need someone to stay with you?"  Taehyung offered.

"No I'm fine TaeTae.  Go enjoy the rest of the party like everyone else.  I'll be over here checking Instagram and watching k dramas so don't worry!"

"Okay okay," Taehyung said laughing.  "But if you need me, don't hesitate to call me over."

"I got it buddy.  Now shoo.  Let me have my peace and quiet."  With that said, he left after waving good bye to me.

I sighed.  "I guess it's just me, myself, and I, huh?"  I chuckled to myself and went onto Instagram. 

'Someone messaged me?'   I swiped to the left to see my direct messages.  She had messaged me.  Ji Woo.

jiwoo: you can stop following Jungkook around now since he's mine. we're boyfriend and girlfriend now.

Y/N: look Ji Woo, i don't care if you guys are together. actually i do, i care about jungkook and to know that he's with a person like you sickens me. but he's so happy about your guy's new found relationship so i won't bother with convincing you not to date him.

jiwoo: oh look at you acting like a moral being. don't act as if you aren't jealous you little whore

Y/N: i'm not jealous.  'Yes I am, but I won't let you out of all people know.'  i unlike you care about my friends and their future.

jiwoo: you really want to die today don't you? just wait till we get to school again i'll give you the beating of your life!

Y/N: thanks but no thanks. anyways, i actually have things to do so if you don't mind, i'll be leaving first.

Before she could message me anymore threats, I blocked her account on my Instagram.  I didn't know her number, and she probably didn't know mine so I can't block her number.  For now, this will do.

To be Continued...