shattered heart | j.j.k

I'm Sorry | 60

Y/N's POV:

"Why?" I yelled out.  I didn't expect myself to get this emotional.  I didn't expect the cold tears that ran down my face, or the pain that slashed through my heart.  I didn't expect the immense anger and loss of hope that controlled my body.  I didn't expect any of this.

I let go of Ji Woo and harshly shoved her against the wall.  She let out a grunt but looked at me guiltily and full of sadness.

"Why?" I muttered out weakly.  "Why'd you do it?"

"I-I'm sorry," she hurriedly said.  "I really am, I just, I-"

"You just what?  Made an accident that ruined someone's life?  He's dying right now.  Dying!" I said trembling.

For the first time, I was the one to look down on Ji Woo.  Her pathetic state was crouching before me, pleading for forgiveness.  Once again, at the reminder of Jungkook, her eyes welled up with tears.

"I don't expect you to understand," she said bitterly, wiping the tears off her pink stained cheeks.

"Understand what?" I asked coldly.

"T-to be in love," she said sighing.  "Jungkook, Jungkook made me feel special.  He was the only person to make me feel that way, a-and, I wasn't ready to let him go.  I took his love for granted and when he left me, I realized how much I loved him, how much I needed him in my life."

Unexpectedly, I understood her.  For once, I understood Ji Woo's actions.  I'm in the same situation she's in.  I fell in love with a boy that doesn't love me back.  

"Look, I-I'm sorry.  I didn't mean to bully you, I just, that was the only way for me to remain on top.  The only way for people to listen to me and do what I wanted.  I realize that it's wrong now, but I really love Jungkook a-and I just wanted him back.  I didn't want it to end this way."

Spontaneously, I slapped Ji Woo hard for the second and last time.  Her hand touched the stinging area, but she didn't retaliate.

"I-I deserve that," she said quietly.

"You do deserve that.  But do you really think that I don't understand what you're going through?"

She looked up at me, confused.

"I-I know what it means to be in love.  The butterflies in your stomach, the beats of your heart.  The smiles you get and the happiness you share.  I get it.  I fell in love too."

Her eyes widened.

"The guy I fell in love with, he's a really special, good guy.  He's hard working and passionate.  Humorous and just a fun person to be around with.  His large doe eyes light up when he's excited and his adorable bunny smiles brighten up my day.  Despite his amazing background, he's extremely humble and not materialistic."

I was smiling the whole entire time describing Jungkook.  My cheeks warmed up and my heart fluttered.  I love him, and I won't hold back anymore.  

"He's gone through some tough times that not many people know about, but he's such a strong person.  A-and not to mention his kindness, this boy is one of the nicest people I know," I said chuckling.

"But this guy, he's in the hospital right now.  H-he's fighting for his life, a-and I don't know if he's going to make it.  The thing I regret the most is not confessing to him because now I obviously can't do it."

Ji Woo looked shocked, and then her expression morphed into an apologetic one.

"I'm so sorry, I don't know how many times I'll be saying this.  Jungkook doesn't deserve someone like me, I'm sorry for ruining your chance with him," she said, tearing up.

Looking at Ji Woo, I pitied her.  She appeared so sad, frustrated, guilty, disappointed, and mad that I wanted to forgive her.

I grabbed her hand and heaved her up, when we shared eye contact, I smiled.

"This, t-this is what Jungkook would've wanted.  I obviously won't be forgiving your until quite a while, but I can see that you've changed and that's what's important.  Even though this might be hard for you, I think, I think you should turn yourself in."

She look frightened and in that moment, wanted to run away.  I could feel the light tug at my hands, revealing how much she wanted to just sprint off and leave me behind.

"If you love Jungkook, you'll do this for him.  Don't run away from your problems and expect for other people to clean it up for you, you won't be able to do that this time," I said, squeezing her hands.

"You'll receive a shorter sentence if you listen to me."

"I, I'll listen to you."

To be Continued...

author's note: i just wanted to say thank you for all my active readers. seeing that one or two people even read my chapters brightens up my day. i'm sorry for this really short chapter, i think it's the shortest part i've ever written for this story and i'm honestly not proud. school started just a day ago and i already had taken a test today on the second day. what im trying to say is that updates will be slower and my chapters might be more rushed and sloppily written. i know that its quite a convenience to wait and not get the quality you deserve, but although this seems like an excuse, school really will be taking up a lot of time. i'll always try to update at least once or twice a week, i hope ya'll can understand. thank you for everybody reading this book up until now.  ily <3