shattered heart | j.j.k

Graduation | 44

Y/N's POV:

"Where do you guys want to eat after graduation?"  Five months have past ever since that day.  Five months ever since my friendship with Jungkook was ruined.  Five months that I had to get rid of my feelings.

"I don't know TaeTae, honestly any place is okay.  I don't really care."  It was difficult.  I had to sit alone during lunch.  I didn't think I'd miss talking to him that much.  It broke my heart every time I watched from far away and saw him laughing and smiling without me.

It was difficult to avoid and ignore him when he sat next to me in all the classes we had together.  It was even more hard to see him perfectly fine with it.  Perfectly fine without talking to me, joking with me, laughing with me.  In fact, he seemed even happier without me.

"How about ________?"  Bangtan and I were deciding which place to celebrate at after we finished graduation.  I was of course excited.  I'd be free.  Free from any more trouble.  Free from heartache and regret.  I'd be free from Jungkook.

"Sure TaeTae, sounds great."  These past few months, I've been doing okay.  Ji Woo backed off a bit after what she did.  I think she must've thought that she had no need to after she ruined our friendship.  I still get harsh comments from her every now and then and the occasional kick or pinch she gives when no one's looking, but for the most part, her bullying has lessened by a lot.

"We'll meet there afterschool.  Jungkook probably has a date with Ji Woo so he won't be there.  You're free to go."  During my dark times and low places, Taehyung was always there to help me.  Always there to comfort me.  Always there to patch up the holes Jungkook created.

I was forever grateful for him, and I always felt bad that I couldn't repay him back.  He's such a sweetheart and I don't deserve him.

"Even if he was there I would still go.  Nothing's stopping me from eating food," I joked.

I could hear his laughter ring through my phone.  "Of course you would.  Anyways, the guests are here.  I need to go, sorry Y/N."

"It's fine TaeTae, stop apologizing for everything.  Go do what you need to do.  Bye!"

I never actually moved on from Jungkook.  There's just something about feelings that never go away.  He was my first love.  First one  sided love actually.  I never fell in love before I met Jungkook, and I don't think that I'll ever fall in love again.

My feelings have slowly gone away, but they can never completely go away.  

There was only one day before graduation.  I would be free tomorrow.  High school would be over.  My suffering would be over.  I forgave Jungkook for what he did.  He didn't know that what Ji Woo said was a lie.  He didn't know how much I cared about him.

"Finally, I'm done," I whispered out.  I had prepared graduation gifts for everyone.  Just a small trinket for them to remember me by.  High school was going to be over, and we'd probably hang out less.  Before I left, I just wanted to give all of them kind of a last memoir of our memories.

Even Jungkook.  

On Graduation Day:

"Y/N!"  Taehyung sprinted towards me and wrapped his arm around my neck.

"Yah, get off me," I said, laughing.

"Hey," he said pouting.  "Today's the last day you'll see me in this school uniform.  Might as well enjoy the view while it still lasts." 

"And I'm glad it's the last day," I retorted, crossing my arms.

He glared at me but laughed.

"Let's sit on the seats," I said, grabbing his arm excitedly.  There weren't any classes today because of Graduation and the seniors are allowed to go home after the ceremony.