shattered heart | j.j.k

Break Up | 46

Y/N's POV:

The word broken wasn't enough to describe how hurt I felt right now.  I was feeling so conflicted.  I wanted to forgive him, I wanted him to come back to me and hang out like we used to.  But another side of me wanted him to suffer from what he did to me.

I was always forgiving him.  Using the same exact excuses again and again, I would let him off the hook.  He didn't know about her lies, I told myself.  He didn't really mean it, I told myself.  He's a good person, I told myself.

For once, I wanted to be on the receiving end of our relationship.  To be selfish.

"Get yourself together Y/N," I said shivering.  For an hour and a half, I was huddled by the tall tree, drenched in rain.  Taehyung didn't follow me and I'm glad he didn't.  No way was his graduation going to be ruined because I was being a crybaby.

I knew that he probably wanted to run after me, he's such a nice person after all, but there were probably restrictions that he was forced to follow.

"You tripped Y/N.  You fell and got a booboo, stop crying."  I got up from where I was seated and wiped away my tears.  "You've been through this already, it's not different from last time." I wiped my bloody knees and took out my phone to check the time.

Looking at the digital clock, I remembered about our after graduation plans.

'Don't ruin their plans just because you're a little sad.'   I was tired of being a burden to Bangtan.  They always helped me and supported me whenever I needed them to.  I wanted to be more independent, more strong.  I didn't want to lean on them anymore.

I bent down to reach for something when I had a moment of realization.  "You idiot," I said facepalming.  "You really forgot the gifts did you?  I guess I now have five minutes to get the bag and ten minutes to get to the food place."

I ran as fast as I could in the rain, not caring about my wet hair and clothes.  When I got back to my high school, I saw Taehyung waiting near the seats with an umbrella.

"What are you still doing here?" I breathed out.  "It's almost time for our plans."

"Because you forgot this," he said, lifting up the small bag.  Chuckling, he pulled me into his embrace and protected me from the sprinkling water.

"You didn't have to wait here, I could've gotten it myself," I said, my muffled in his clothes.

"I'm sorry I wasn't with you when you ran away Y/N."  The guilty tone in his voice made me feel guilty.

"TaeTae, I'm okay.  I really am.  If anything, I should be sorry because you were always with me when I was down, but I was never there for you."

"Don't say that, I should've been there for you," he spoke softly.

"Okay TaeTae, let's call this a draw.  We're both amazing friends."  I hugged him tighter after hearing his laughter and then pulled away.

"What were you even doing while I was gone?"  I had a hunch that he confronted Jungkook, but I wanted to be certain before jumping to conclusions.

Taehyung had a nervous look on his face and I knew I was right.

"I-I'm really sorr-"

"It's fine TaeTae," I said smiling.  I placed my hands on his shoulders and looked up at his handsome face.  "Thank you.  You did something that I should've done a long time ago.  You once again protected me from myself and I just wanted to say thank you.  My one thank you will never be enough but I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you being by me  despite my flaws.  I'm glad you did that.  I've been sacrificing myself to someone that didn't even pay attention to me.  Thank you for letting me realize how stupid I was being."