The Sad Truth

Cant do this again

I was in my room after spending the day with Hagrid. The twins came by to look for me but I told Hagrid to say I wasn't there. We mostly talked about what I was going through and he sympathized with me because his mother left too. I spent the day crying then decided to return to my room, I conjured my speaker and phone from my house and played music loudly with my face in the pillow.

"Rock? I didn't think it was your style?" I looked up and saw Hermione looking at me with a small smile. I half smiled back and put my face in my pillow "Hey it's alright, no one thinks less of you" she said padding my back.

I sniffled and mumbled "I'm not worried about what others think" I said "it's just that these past few days Draco was being nice and I really thought we could be friends again, I trusted and confided in him so much when we were kids and he threw it all back at me " I said starting to cry again.

She sighed "it's great you hope the best in someone but you have to realize that people don't change overnight" I smiled at her wiping my face, I hugged her, and she patted my head.

I pushed myself off of her "so how did it go with Ron?" I asked trying to desperately change the conversation. She blushed and said everything went according to plan. I squealed a bit and congratulated her, she was going into detail about the situation when there was a knock at the door.

"Um, hello-" I say opening the door before stopping to glared at the person in front of my door " what do you want?" I asked in a monotone voice.

Draco looks at me "I wanted to apologize about today, I was in a rough situation" he says nervously playing with his hands "I didn't mean to say those things to you, I want to be friends really I do it's just not in front of the others I have a reputation, and my dad situation is rough and-" he wasn't able to finish what he was saying because I slapped him.

"That's why we only talked at nights! That's why you visited me after hours? So people wouldn't see you!" I yelled out "Are you really such an asshole that you'd be mean to someone you want to be friends with and expect them to be ok with it! I trusted your word, I trusted YOU when I told you my mom left us" I said pushing him away from me.

"Ili, please" he said sounding desperate.

"Don't Ili me" I said seething at him "don't call me that ever, the only person who could is now dead to me and I want nothing to do with you" I said starting to close my door.

He stuck his foot out so the door wouldn't close "just hear me out" he pleads "I wasn't lying about wanting to be friends, trust me on that"

I held back tears and chuckled "that's what I'd been doing, I can hear you out and trust you as much as I can but you are the one who ruined that for yourself, this is the same situation we were in as kids and I don't think I can do this again" I say opening the door to hug him "i know the real you and that's what I'll cherish but we can't be friends now, not until you know what you want, and I'll be here for you when you do figure it out. I believe you can be a great person and I'll never think anything less but you aren't letting yourself reach your potential and I don't want to be someone's secret especially if that means you'll treat me like dirt around others" I say hugging him a little harder and he hugged me back. I pushed away and kissed his cheek "Bye D" I say closing the door and turning to a shocked Hermione.

A few days had passed and I never looked Draco's way. I avoided him and went to Hagrid's hut during lunch for the last week, we talked about Buckbeak and his terrible fate. Harry, Ron, and Hermione walked into the hut and saw me drinking tea with Hagrid.

Harry ran up to me and inspected to see if I was ok "Lilian you look tired, are you having the proper amount of rest? We haven't seen you lately and the twins are sad, they think you are avoiding them after what happened a week ago" I felt guilty, I haven't seen Fred and George, but I knew they'd question me and I knew I'd cry.

I put on a smile "Im ok really, I just didn't want to see Draco so I've been having lunch with Hagrid and Professor Snape gave me permission too so I won't be in any real trouble" I said, they all stared at I wasn't sure what to say.

Ron hands me a picture, it's a picture of me and the kitchen elves dancing, Dobby was on the table dancing and I was holding a spoon close to my mouth I looked up at him "How did you get this?" I asked him.

"Colin Creevey" I looked at him confused because I didn't know who he was "he's is a year younger than us and has a thing for taking pictures, he was walking by the kitchen and heard music, he saw you dancing and snapped a picture to show his dad that there are nice people in our school"

I looked down at the picture and smiled then looked back up at him "but how did you get your hands on it?" I asked.

He looked like he didn't want to say anything but Hermione gave him an encouraging nod "Draco had managed to get a copy from Creevey and was looking at it today, Fred and George weren't happy about this and said "what? Are you planning on hurting her again? Didn't you hurt her enough" and snatched the picture away from him. Hermione had a feeling you'd be here so I took it, I thought you'd need it" he says. I smile at him and mumble a small thank you and he just nods.

"Ouch" says Harry rubbing the back of his head, we look out the window to see Dumbledore and the executioner coming to Hagrid's home. We run out the back door and waited for them to go inside before we headed back.

"I'm going to find Fred and George, are you coming with" I asked the trio, they shook their heads saying they were going to stay for a while. I nodded and went my way.