My life as completely changed since giving birth to Cori. She has been nothing but a blessing. Yeah, I created a bunch of bullshit that I don't know how to fix. I know how to fix it, but damn. I just gave birth, im not trying to die already. The more I look at Cori, the more I realized how bad I fucked up. Everything ive done over the past few months, well the last 9 months. I'm starting to regret all of it. Don't get me wrong, I love Cori with every piece of me. I don't regret having her, but I regret how I had her. I regret how she was created. When I look at this innocent adorable face, I just want to slap myself. How could I be this stupid and let things get so far out of control? All I wanted was to be happy. Rather it was with Norris or Connor. I just wanted to be happy and be treated right. How I go from creeping with Connor to Norris signing the birth certificate for someone else's child? Like, how did I let that happen? How did this shit get so far out of control? Nobody is to blame but Norris ass.
If he was being the husband he was supposed to be from the jump, I wouldn't be in this shit now. I would have never cheated with Connor, got pregnant, none of that shit. All he had to do was be the husband he vowed to be. Instead of cheating with Brooke, he should have just left me. He was too busy playing house with her and getting her pregnant. None of this shit would be my life right now. If he would have just signed the divorce papers when he got served, maybe shit would be a little different. I wouldn't be still tied to him and everything that comes with him. I would have been far away from him. Me, Cori, and Connor. We could be somewhere living the happy life we always talked about. I just wanted to be fucking happy! I had to cheat with my husband's friend/coworker, get pregnant by him, lie to my husband why I have a half white baby, thennn on top of that let my husband sign the birth certificate for his FRIEND baby. I'm living in a fucking soap opera all because Norris couldn't make me happy. I don't deserve nothing im going through right now. Y'all don't understand how depressed I am right now. I'm stuck being Gabriel fucking Lee..
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