The Moonstruck Ages

peter pan : march 10, 2018

*trigger warnings: suicide , self harm*

my life is falling apart at the seams.
i can't let you go, but i have zero grip left.
this world isn't guaranteed, which is why we shouldn't dream.
this is a fragile bridge we're walking on.
i'm secretly hoping i fall off at the end.
i don't know how to get through a day without breaking down.
i'm chained to living, and death is looking appealing.
i see glitter and stars behind your eyes.
wishing on 11:11 every night, yet i always wake up worse than before.
it's false to believe that peter pan is free.
i'm a bird trapped in a cage, never able to fly.
a rusty key opens my heart.
maybe my brother and i are the same; my sister has definitely changed.
i'm in fear of missing a future i'll never have.
hiding the cuts on my shoulders and thighs.
this place is filled with all the things i hate.
the ones i trusted revealed to be evil.
you realize too late, you're the hope you're trying to create.
what do you earn from this hurricane?
you said yourself that you wanted me, so why is this happening?
don't let our time go to waste.
i look at your house and the memories come flooding.
ghosts occupy this room with me, at least i'm not lonely.
silhouettes are in the corners.
i don't care, they leave me be.
needing a compass to guide me.