I'll Protect Her |H.S| *On Hold*

Chapter 27

Harry's POV >>

Jessica was in her room. I decided to leave her alone. I was only across the hall if she needed anything.

I walked into my bathroom and lifted one of the tiles on the floor that was loose. I took out Jessica's profile I kept under there, along with other important information. Liam fished out a lot of extra info by hacking into the computer system of Jessica's therapist and psychologist.

I started to look through the file.

Her file.

Protection Programme Profile.

Jessica Lilian Carter.

Seventeen years old.

Mother; Cora Carter.

Father; Jonathan Carter.

Lives with her Aunt, the sister of her deceased Mother. Jessica's parents died suddenly, their cause of death - unknown.

Emily Tucker has been struggling to care for her niece Jessica since the tragic death of her parents.

Jessica started to show signs of extreme paranoia and traumatic stress disorder.

Jessica reported to her therapist; "I keep hearing these voices in my head. They're hard to ignore."

She was classified as a threat to herself and possibly to others around her, by her therapist of one year.

Emily Tucker was informed of this and advised to enrol Jessica into the nearby Mental Hospital. Where she could receive the help she needed.

However Emily refused to accept her niece as a threat and claimed she was just, "misunderstood."

An agreement was reached. As long as Jessica continued to visit her therapist and promised to see a psychologist five times a week, she'd be allowed to stay at home with her Aunt and pursue a 'normal' life.

Now Jessica is somewhat stable. "Her flashbacks and nightmares have decreased by a substantial amount since she started to take the medicine we prescribed to her." Says her psychologist.

I closed the file. Everything about her was sitting in front of me, in this file. I knew everything about her.

I couldn't bring myself to tell her anything about me, the real me. I was too ashamed. I didn't want to taint her pure innocent spirit with my dark past.

How could I tell her? Tell her that I have no heart. That I'm incapable of feeling. That I'm too messed up for her. I couldn't tell her, I just couldn't.

I'm too selfish. I need her too much. I've never 'felt' anything towards anyone before, I don't really know how to feel. It sounds stupid, but I was never given the opportunity.

But with Jessica. When I was with her, there was this...connection. Like I was being pulled towards her by some sort of gravitational force.

I couldn't describe it. It was so new to me, foreign and strange, and it scared the living crap out of me. With her, I was totally out of my comfort zone.

She made me forget. Forget about all the shit I've gone through, I'm going through, I will go through. That was the endless cycle called, my life. But when Jessica was in it, it didn't seem so bad. It didn't seem so scary.

The only way I could describe it was ;

She was the light at the end of my tunnel.

And right now, I really need that light to stay.