Gaping and sore around the edges
The darkness is spreading
From the open wounds
That reopened unknown to me
I thought I was safe
I thought I was free
Guess it was just the eye of the storm
Guess I'm in for more
Than I bargained for
Who knew that this pain
This emptiness
That I feel inside
Would never subside
Sure it might wane
But when it comes back
It comes back hard
And damn does it hurt
It aches and burns
Like I'm being stabbed
Over and over again
Why cant I catch a break
From feeling so numb
Or feeling everything all at once
I'm tired of feeling nothing
Or feeling like smiling, crying, and screaming
All at once
Who knew you could be happy
And miserable af
At the same time
I sure as hell
Keep figuring it out
Like I've forgotten
Everytime
Just when I think
Theres a break in the storm
Another wave comes
And knocks me down
Leaving me breathless
And unable to rest
Feeling so numb and empty
I have one solace
One place of peace
One person of ease
And I'm forced to go without
Because it cant work this time
Maybe next time
But I cant go without
For touch longer
Or I'll lose my mind
Sleepless nights
Panicked nightmares
Breathless dreams
Clawing at the air
Hoping to grasp something
That will save me from myself
Why must I be my worst enemy
But also the only thing that can save me
Why cant I be released from the chains
That seem to forever bind me
That will shackle me to this prison
Leaving me feeling done and empty
I can sew my wounds shut
I can wear bright colors
I can put on a mask
And have a smile
But even if you looked into my eyes
You would see that despite my efforts
I'll just be broken and empty
