Learn To Love Again | Adashi

Chapter V

This chapter will focus on Adam's past and explain the cutting scars mentioned in the last book. Self harm and physical abuse warning!

"I should probably go." Adam whispered.
"No, stay." Shiro mumbled into his chest, which his face was swished into.
Adam chuckled as he kissed his forehead.
"It's getting late." He said as he untangled himself from underneath Shiro's arm. He groaned as Adam walked to the door.
"Goodnight." He whispered as he shut the door. Shiro considered saying it back but he decided after Adam closed the door to his room that it was to late. He rolled over to face the wall, secretly wishing Ad had stayed instead of going to his own room. Although in his defense it was kind of hot tonight since they were passing by a warmer planet and snuggling when your hot and sticky isn't exactly the best thing in the world, or universe if we're being real. Shiro eventually found himself drifting off to sleep.

Unrelated but Shiro kept autocorrecting itself to 'shito' wtf???

Flashback

Shiro laid silently in Adam's room staring at the ceiling. He was thinking about how he and Adam were going to pull off being a 'totally platonic' relationship in front of his parents. Shiro, Adam, and Annabeth had planned for them to visit Adam's house over the summer even before they had started dating. So the Gary's- Annabeth started calling them that, as stupid as the name was it kinda caught on with the group- minus Matt, where currently staying at Adam's cozy house in Brazil.
Adam and Shiro we're sharing Adam's room while Annabeth got the guest room, because apparently 'girls need their space' or at least thats what Adam's mom said.
Shiro didn't mind though, any excuse to have some privacy with Adam was okay with him. Even if there was only one bed... more snuggling then? Plus, there were stars on his ceiling. Obviously not real stars, but the plastic glowing ones you got at the store. Shiro wasn't exactly sure why they amused him so much. There was this kind of homey feeling about them, he didn't know how to explain it. It made it better Adam's fingers were untwined with his and his head only inches apart. Shito was pretty sure Annabeth was already out cold so they didn't have to worry about her bursting through the door.
"Fuck, I'll be right back." Adam said-as he shot up from beside Shiro. He jumped slightly from the sudden movement.
"What is it?" He asked groggily as he sat up just slightly. He would never admit it but he really wanted to keep holding Adam's hand.
"I forgot my phone in the living room, I don't want my ma going through it." He explained, his fingers loosely holding onto Shiro's.
"Okay, don't be to long." He said softly.
Adam smiled lightly before giving Shiro's light peck on the lips.
"I won't." He promised. Shiro blushes heavily as his boyfriend walked out of the room. The only thing in his mind being, holycrapholycrapholycraphesaborableAHHHHHH!!!
A small ding came from under the bed disturbing Shiro's gay panic. He cautiously leaned over and saw Adam's phone.
I guess he didn't forget it after all, Shiro thought as he reached to pick it up. He swung his legs over the end of the bed and headed in the direction Adam was.
"I can't believe I've been raising a faggot!" He heard Adam's step-dad yell.
"I-I don't know what you mean." Shiro recognized this voice immediately. That horrible man was yelling at Adam, his Adam.
Shiro peered through the cracked open door in shock.
"Don't lie to me boy!" He yelled as he shoved Adam against the coffee table. His side hit the sharp edge causing his to yell in pain. The look on his face was something Shiro hated, sheer terror.
"Stop making noise dumbass!" He yelled again.
Adam just nodded, still trembling.
But he wasn't done yet.
His hand made its way to Adam's throat, causing him to gag. The grip tightened as Adam's face turned red. He was choking and gasping for air but he man didn't stop.
"If you tell anyone about this, you have seen You're last days." He threatened as he let go of his throat. Adam gasped for air as he fell backwards in exhaustion. His eyes struggling to stay open.
He left the room and shut the door with a slam.
Shiro swing the door open and ran to his lovers side.
"Adam, sweetheart I need you to keep breathing for me okay?" He said as he cradled him in his arms. It didn't help.
"Adam, he's gone now, it's okay. Just breath, I'm here, I've got you. You're safe now. Just please try to calm down." He whispered as he ran his hands through Adam's hair. His breathing soon started to even out. Tears glimmered in his eyes as he used them to stare into his boyfriends.
"Takashi, why are you crying?" Adam asked in a weak voice. Shiro kissed his forehead and his nose.
"He hurt you." He confessed.
"You're here, I'm okay now." Adam told him.
"Can you walk?" He asked.
"I can try."
"Okay, but if you need help I'm right by your side."
Adam nodded. He slowly began to sit up before yelling in pain and falling back down. Fresh tears decorated his almond colored skin.
"Shhh, it's okay." Shiro whispered as he gave soft kisses to Adam's head.
"I-I can't." He cried out.
"Shh, it's okay."
Shiro slowly picked him up and carried him to his room. He laid him down on the bed and wiped the tears from his face.
"Can you remove your shirt or do you want me to?" He asked quietly. Adam expression changed.
"I need to look at the cut, it seems like it's bleeding." He explained.
"O-oh. Uhm, I don't think I can." He said. Yea, it was true, but also he kinda wanted Shiro to take his shirt off~
"Okay. Where do you keep your first aid supplies?"
"There's some in the cabinet under the sink."
Shiro nodded before rushing to go get it.
The felling came back, he felt like he was alone again.
"T-Takashi!" He stuttered in panic. Shiro appeared in the door way with the supplies in his hands. A worried look consumed his face as he rushed over.
"Hey, I'm here." His fingers traced Adam's cheek as he planted a kiss on his forehead.
"I'm sorry." He said weakly.
"Don't apologize. It's not your fault."
He nodded weakly.
"You ready?" Shiro asked as he pointed at Adam's shirt.
"Yea."
Shiro slowly lifted the shirt up to reveal the cut, he gasped but continued to pull it over his head. He put the shirt on the floor next to him. The cut was bruised and bleeding just slightly, but most off all it looked painful.
He didn't waste time staring, however. He took the wet towel in his hand.
"Can you roll over?" He asked softly. Adam nodded and rolled on his side so his back was facing Shiro. He took the towel and dabbed up the blood. The younger bit down on his lip in pain. Shiro put the towel aside and unscrewed the lid to the ointment.
"The worst part is over now." Shiro whispered as he layered the ointment on Adam's skin where the cut was. He then took a large nonstick bandage and covered the cut with it. He used medical take to keep it in place. Once he was done he put the supplies back in the cabinet and slid in next to Adam.
"Adam, has he done that to you before?" He asked.
"N-no, that was the first time." The younger answered.
"I can't leave you here at by yourself with that man. I care about you to much."
"I'm afraid you have no choice. But we have now..."

"Adam..."

"Hold me."

Shiro didn't hesitate to wrap his arms around Adam and pull him close, trying to not touch the cut and make him in more pain. Adam buried his head in his boyfriend's chest as he shut his eyes, slowly drifting off to a peaceful sleep.

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Shiro woke up to the sound of soft crying coming from the bathroom. He immediately recognized the voice as Adam's. He shot out of bed and walked over to the door.
"Adam? Are you okay?" He asked as he leaned his body on the doorframe. The crying immediately stopped.
"Y-yea, I-I'm f-fine." A shaky voice responded. The door opened to reveal a pink eyed bed head teenager.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm fine."
Shiro didn't believe him, not in the slightest, but he couldn't held him if he wasn't talking to him.
"We should head down soon." Adam said.
"Yea."

End of flashback

Now, Shiro knew what he was doing in there. He was aggravated he had missed it. But that was ten years ago. All he could do now was love him. And hopefully, that would be enough.

*insert aggressive gay panic*

Sooooooooo
I would like to note at the time I wrote this it's late and I'm sick. I most definitely should be sleeping but my brains like "Nah, it's Adashi time bitches!"
So that's my life for you.
This is unrelated but I just reread "Night Terrors" which is a really good Curtis x Shiro fic. I don't even ship it but that fic is really fucking good. I definitely recommend it if you need something to cry about.
Also I would like to note my pronouns are They/Them/Theirs, please use them!!!
You're probably wondering why I'm bringing this up but this is something I've been dealing with because literally none of my friends, family, or litarally anyone respects my preferred pronouns.
I'm also taking a short break from this story. I'm not having much inspiration and I'm hoping the break will help with that. I'm sorry, I love you guys.
Have a good day!