Not Scared Of You

Chapter 17

GAHH!!! I. Am. So. Sorry.! These chapters keep on coming out short! Next time, I'll try to make them a bit longer :P 

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Siva’s P.O.V

So far, it’s been different without Krystal. The boys and I haven’t been talking much lately. Actually, we haven’t been doing anything lately. We’re just sitting here, still trying to rap our heads around things. It’s been a week. A freaking week and the police have found N O T H I N G. Tom and I practically begged them to continue the search! Thankfully, they said that they would call us if anything came up, but so far, we have received no calls whatsoever. I wonder how Nath is doing… I decided to leave my hotel room for once in a couple of days to go and talk to him.  I walked down the quiet hallway and went up to his door. I knocked on it gently. A couple of seconds later, he opened the door. His hair was a mess, his eyes were red and puffy with bags under them, and he looked a lot thinner since I last saw him which was on Thursday… And now it’s what? Tuesday? But from the looks of it, he’s taking this a lot worse than I am…

“Nathan…” He looked at me with sad eyes. He didn’t say anything- he just walked away and I followed him into the room, closing the door behind me. “Nathan, when was the last time you ate?” I asked. He shrugged his shoulders and walked past me to sit on the bed. “Okay, when was the last time you slept?” He shrugged his shoulders again, keeping his gaze focused on the ground. I began to grow a little annoyed. He’s scaring me… “Nathan! Answer the damn questions!” I shouted. He looked at me with the same look he had on Wednesday when I yelled at him and Jay. “Now, when was the last time you ate and slept?” He just broke down and fell onto the bed. I walked over to him and pulled him into a comforting hug. I feel so bad for him. I couldn’t help but shed a tear myself. I can’t stand to see him like this! He continued to cry into my sweatshirt. He soon pulled away, wiping his tears. “T-the L-last time I ate and slept was b-before she got k-k-kidnapped.” He choked. Oh my God. “Nathan, I know that this is a hard time for you- it’s a hard time for all of us! But this isn’t good for you…”

“I don’t care! Eating or sleeping isn’t worth it anymore! I feel empty, numb, lost! There’s not a day where I don’t think about her Seev! I know she’s your cousin and is like a sister to you, and I know you love her too, but…. But I can’t go on like this! This guilt is just eating me alive!” He sobbed. “What guilt? Nathan, if you’re blaming yourself for all of this, then don’t! It’s not your fault!” I said. “Yes it is! If I would’ve done a better job of protecting her, then none of this would have happened!”

“Nathan, you weren’t the only one! It was all of us protecting her! And plus, we didn’t know that this would happen! Yeah, Jay did the wrong thing in not telling us about what Krystal told him, but think about it. Maybe if he told us, we could have been more careful of where we took her, but this was unexpected! Please don’t put so much pressure on yourself Nath.” I reassured. He smiled weakly and wiped more of his tears away. “Now, since you haven’t eaten in a week, how about we go downstairs to the dining hall and get you something?” He nodded and we made our way downstairs.

Nathan’s P.O.V

The talk Siva gave me made me feel a bit better and relieved. He’s right when he said all of that. Ever since Krystal’s been gone, I stopped eating because I had no appetite at all and I stopped sleeping because I would either have horrible nightmares or I just wouldn’t be able to sleep at all. Also, I might have been sneaking a few beers in from the other boys’ fridges… Don’t tell them though… All I can say is, I’ve been an emotionless wreck the past week and I was not enjoying it.

As Seev and I were standing on the line for food, my phone started to vibrate. Tom.

Me: “Hello?”

Tom: “Are you with Siva by any chance?”

Me: “Yeah, why?”

Tom: “Come to my room like, now.”

Me: “Oh.. Okay then. Bye.”

Tom: “Bye.”

“Who was that?” Siva asked.

“It was Tom. He wants us to go to his room. It must be urgent because he sounded worried…”

“Shit.”

We suddenly sprinted to the elevator, clicking on the 12th floor button. Once we arrived at Tom’s door, he swung it open, like he knew we were there. He dragged us in and sat down at the table with a very worried looking Jay and Max. “Guys, what’s going on?” I asked hesitantly.

“The police called. They think they might know where Krystal is…”