perfectly wrong | ethma

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ethan

i felt really bad about running into emma like that in the hallway. i wanted to make sure to find her at lunch and truly apologize.

i saw her in chemistry but i felt like i needed it to be a one on one thing without josh present.

i secretly think he likes her and that's why he's that way with her. josh is usually a dick, but it seems to be heightened when emma's around.

i wouldn't blame him. emma is gorgeous. she has the prettiest blue eyes that could captivate anyone. her hair is long and gorgeous when it's down, but she keeps it in a bun most of the time and it still looks good. her style is really cool and she's not afraid to stand up for herself.

i remember having the biggest crush on her in middle school and freshman year, but i always thought she was more into grayson. they always hung out and i was just kinda there. whenever i'd walk into a room, she'd instantly become more quiet. so, i moved on and found jen.

"it's not your fault you fell into her," jen says. she cuts me out of my thoughts.

"i know," i say as i look away from scanning the room for emma. i look into jens brown eyes as she smiles for me.

"but, you're just so caring. that's why i love you." she kisses my cheek.

jens been telling me she loves me for months now, but i can't seem to say it back. it makes me feel horrible, but i don't think she's seemed to mind.

i look at the table where emma usually is and she's there this time. she's with riley, one of her best friends.

"i'll be right back," i say. i get up and walk to the table across from mine where emma's sitting.

"hey, emma." i say.

they both stop talking and riley chokes on her water.

"sorry if i'm interrupting-"

"no, not at all. sit. i have to go find easton for um, something." riley says and quickly gets up.

i sit down near emma and smile. she wasn't making much eye contact with me. this is how she always got when i walked in a room.

i think she hates me.

emma

he must think i'm an idiot or something because i can't seem to make eye contact with him.

"i just wanted to apologize for earlier," he says. "i would've apologized in chem, but josh was right there."

"you couldn't apologize to me in front of josh?" i ask.

his eyes widen as he realizes what i just accused him of. "oh god, no! not that. it's just i know he would've made some inappropriate remark and ruin my whole apology."

i nod my head slowly.

"i swear that's the only reason," ethan continues.

"no, i get it." i say. "josh definitely would've done that,"

"anyways, i am sorry," his hazel eyes look at me with sincerity.

"apology accepted. although, neither of you needed to apologize." i say.

"josh definitely did need to apologize," i laugh.

"not josh. grayson apologized to me earlier in the hallway. neither of you needed to do that," i smile kindly at him. "thank you, though."

"mhm," he says. his body language changed as he got up. he walks away without saying another word.

~

"so, are you going to the party?" cassie asks.

i shrug. "i don't know,"

"i think you should!" riley says excitedly.

"you're only saying that so you can play dress up with me," i roll my eyes.

"easton thinks it's a good idea," riley says. i look up at easton.

"you do?" i ask him.

"i mean, yeah. emma, you're a cheerleader. time to act like one." he says.

"what's that even supposed to mean?" i ask, folding my arms.

"i mean that-"

"he means that you should go out to more parties with us," riley cuts him off. "please!"

i try to not let her convince me. i'm about to say no, but then my mouth says, "ok fine."