perfectly wrong | ethma

twelve

a/n: thank you for all the love so far !! ily. please let me know what you think so far & what you think is going to happen. <3

i didn't see or speak to him at all this weekend. i have no clue about anything that went on with anyone. my phone has been the driest it's ever been.

i walk into school and all eyes are on me. i walk slower as i make eye contact with a few people.

what the fuck?

the only two people that aren't looking at me are riley, cassie, and emily. which that's odd. wait.

emily's back!

every other thought i had left my mind as i jog over to emily.

"emily, hi!" i say excitedly. "you're back."

she forces a smile on her face. emily is the worst at hiding her emotions. she couldn't fool anyone.

"what's wrong?" i ask with pure concern.

she widens her eyes as emily nudges her. she shakes her head. "oh, nothing! happy to be back,"

"what are you hiding from me?" i press.

"hey!" josh yells my way. "since you and dolan are officially never happening, what about you and i give it a go?"

i'm disgusted by his question and i'm sure you can tell. "no chance," i pause as i comprehend what he said. "what am i missing here?" i yell out.

"oh, jen switched dolan's again." he says with a smile on his face. he knew this would hurt me and he's taking pleasure from it.

my heart sank. i felt like i was going to be sick. my legs are ready to give out and tingles arise all over my body.

i hold it together as best as i can as i nod at josh. no words form. i don't know how to react. i don't know if i was to scream or cry.

i do neither.

i start laughing. loud. it was uncontrollable. trust me, i tried to stop. i'm bent over laughing at an inappropriate, non funny time. tears form in my eyes from laughing so hard and i wipe them away.

"emma?" emily touches my arm. "let's go somewhere."

my laughing tears quickly turn into tears tears. i can't even stand anymore. why am i so hurt? i knew this was coming.

"why the fuck is she crying?" ethan steps in front of josh. "what did you tell her?"

josh smirks as he raises his hands. "the truth. she deserves it."

"fuck you," ethan snaps at him.

josh says nothing as he walks away.

ethan turns towards me with sympathetic eyes.

"em, please listen to me i-"

"get away from me," i manage to get out.

"please let me explain. you don't understand,"

"get away from me," i put more anger into my voice hoping he gets the hint.

he goes to say something but cassie and emily steps in front of him.

"i think she said for you to get the fuck away ethan," emily snaps as she folds her arms.

i hear him sigh and his footsteps become more distant.

"emma?" i hear from behind me. it's her.

i turn around to face jen. her eyes show genuine concern.

"are you okay?" she asks as she steps forward. i take three steps back and stumble into a hard body.

"emma?" grayson says as he turns me around. his eyes scan my face. "what's wrong?"

i get out of his grip. "i've got to get out of here," i mumble to myself.

i turn away from everyone, wiping my tears. i've got to get out of here.

"and where do you think you're going?" the principal steps in front of me as i reach the doors.

i keep my head low, so he doesn't see my tears. why can't life be like any other movie where the principal doesn't seem to exist?

"nowhere.." i pause to wipe a tear. "i guess."

"if you need a place to regather yourself, the counseling office is down the hall." he says with the utmost stern voice i've ever heard.

like thank you principal shit face, i had no clue where the counseling office was even though i've been in this school for 3 fucking years.

"i'm fine," i say and walk the opposite way into my first class. "thanks."

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the entire day has been absolutely unbearable. it's lunchtime and i hope ethan and jen go back to their normal tables before any of this happened.

riley waves me over to the table, emily and cassie right next to her. i'm tempted to look over at his table, but i don't.

"hey," emily says with a small smile. "how are you?"

i shrug. "i'm okay, really."

part of me kind of meant it. the bigger part of me didn't.

"hey emma," i hear his voice as he sits down next to me.

i don't move. i'm not even sure if i'm breathing anymore.

"emma?" ethan says my name again.

"can you just," i begin with hatred laced in my voice. "not?"

"okay," he says. "can i explain?"

i shake my head as i turn to face him. "what is there to explain? jen is your first love, ethan. you should be with her, right? that's what everyone here thinks!"

"you don't get it," he says softly. he reaches out to touch me and i move away.

"what is there to get?" i raise my voice.

"it was meaningless!" he shouts.

i thought him and jen were together? at least, that's how josh made it sound.

"nothing with her is meaningless, ethan. not when it comes to you." i tell him as i stand up.

i begin walking out of the cafeteria and he lets me. he doesn't try to stop me. i reach the hallway and i take in a deep breath.

"what kind of idiot are you?" ethan asks as he exits the cafeteria as well.

"excuse me?" his question throws me off.

"when are you going to realize it?" his chest is moving up and down quicker than normal. "how long until you finally get it?"

"get what?" i press.

"come on, em. you're a smart girl," a smile begins to form on his face. "i don't want anyone else. not jen and not any other girl in this school. i want you."

our faces are now inches apart. his eyes stare deeply into mine.

"we don't always get what we want, do we?" i reply smoothly.

he chuckles. "just shut up and let me kiss you,"

he places his hand on my cheek and connected his lips to mine. this kiss felt different. every single nerve went off in my body telling me that this is right.