Ghost Boy (S.M)

twenty four

Does he like me?

I look at Shawn with a 'are you serious look.' He just looks at me with wide eyes. "No I-I don't have fe-feelings for you."

Before I could even process what was actually going on, Sammy says, "I mean I've only known you for like 3 seconds and I even see the way you look at her." Wait.... does he look at me a certain way? I've never even noticed!

"What?" Shawn chuckles. "I don't, I don't, I-I don't, I don't have feelings for Gracie." Well, that was so convincing Shawn. I raise my eyebrow. I could tell Shawn didn't think I believed him. He looks at Sam, "She's with Jace." He says pointing at me.

I honestly don't know what to think if Shawn actually has feelings for me. I mean he's a ghost and I'm human. That's insane, imagine having a boyfriend who's dead, that would be crazy. Someone would walk in and id be kissing no one. I just want to scream thinking about it. It makes me cringe.

But I also think Shawn is amazing. He understands me and he's honestly probably my best friend at this point. He's the best person I know. He's adorable, sweet, childish but also wise, kind, handsome, dreamy, amazing, funny, and seriously everything you could want in a guy, but he's dead.

ALSO, I HAVE A BOYFRIEND! I don't know why I forgot about him. Oh my gosh GRACIEBEBEBBD STOP! AHHHH! I can't have feelings for Shawn. I don't!

"Gracie. Gracie!" Sam says and it snaps me out of my thoughts.

I slightly shake my head. "Ye- Yeah?"

Sammy looks at Shawn. Shawn looks like he is about to kill sam. "I have concluded that Shawn has feelings for you." He sounds like a doctor that just figured out what's wrong with his patient.

"I'm going to kill you." Shawn bites his bottom lip and shakes his head. He jumps to grab Sam but Sam quickly gets off the bed and runs to the door.

All I could do was watch, I was still shocked. Why isn't Shawn trying to defending himself if he doesn't like me?

Before Sam could get out of my room Shawn appeared in front of him. Then Sam tried to walk through him but it didn't work. His face just ended up in shawns chest it was kind of funny but I couldn't laugh. I was too buried in my thoughts.

Shawn has a weird smirk on his face. I knew he wasn't going to do anything to Sam, he just wanted to scare him. I mean he is a ghost.

"Shawn, just let him go," I tell him. Shawn and I have stuff we needed to talk about.

Shawn appears to the side and Sam smirks at him before he runs out the door.

He turns to me and walks over to where I was sitting on my bed. "Gracie I-"

I stop him. "Is what he said true?" Shawn scratch's the back of his neck and looks down at the ground.

"Listen Gra-" I cut him off again.

I come closer to him. "Oh, my, gosh, you do."

He sits on my bed across from me. "I, I, um," he pauses thinking of what he should say. "I do." He says under his breath.

"Huh, um, okay," I say and look at the ground.

"But I know you are with Jace and I'm not exactly someone who can really be in a relationship. Just because I might feel something for you doesn't mean anything has to change." He takes a deep breath. "I mean it's not like anything could even happen with us, I'm dead. It would be weird and, a-and crazy." He points out.

Shawns cheeks were getting red. I can't believe this is happening. "Yeah." We stayed silent for a few seconds. I had to wrap my head around this. There was only one question I wanted to ask. I don't even know why. "Why do you like me?" I ask. Shawn looks up at me.

"How is that even a question?" He says quietly. "Gracie, you are the most incredible girl I've ever met. You are incredibly funny, you always know what to say to me to make me feel better, and you make me go crazy every time I see you! I mean even when you fangirl it's incredibly adorable." He laughs. "You care about how I feel, and always want me to be happy. On my birthday, Gracie, that's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. And seriously have you looked in the mirror you are so beautiful. Honey, you are like an angel." I immediately start to blush. He moves my morning hair out of my face and puts it behind my ear. He's so amazing. Apart of me wants to kiss him right now but there's no way in hell I'm going to do that.

"Shawn," I whisper. "I've spent about a month with you. We've hung out for most of that time. I feel like I've known you for way longer than that though. I do love you." I bite my lip. "But as a friend." Shawn stops looking at me and down at his feet. "I wish things were different, I can't deny that. But I have Jace, and Shawn we can't be together." I pause, I know what I have to say but it pains me to. "You're dead, and maybe if you weren't." I gulp. "Then maybe we could be together."

Shawn doesn't say anything back for about 20 seconds but it felt like forever. "I know that I'm dead, but I have this gut feeling, that I'll have my time with you." He says softly.

When he says that I get butterflies in my stomach. But I just can't look at him. "And I hope that you're right."

Shawn nods and licks his lips before disappearing. I take a loud deep breathe and fall back on my bed.

I really do wish things were different. Shawn is the best guy I know, I wish I could call him mine, but I just can't, it wouldn't be right.