Ghost Boy (S.M)

sixteen

When Brian left something wasn't right with him. He looked like he had been crying. I do feel bad for Brian, he lost his best friend. I've only known Reece for five years and it would still be hell on earth for me if I lost her.

I also can't help but feel selfish. I feel like I've been keeping Shawn to myself and I never intended for that. But if anyone ever found out about Shawn, who knows what would happen. It would probably result in me leaving, I'd never see Shawn again. I just can't risk it. I care for Shawn to much, even though I've only known him for a few weeks.

Right now Im sitting on my window seat just thinking about, well, everything. Shawn hasn't showed up, I'm guessing it was hard for him to see Brian. If he was excited he probably would be up here pacing back in forth, telling me all about how Brian is old now and how seeing him was incredible, but that's not the case.

All of a sudden I feel my phone vibrate from my back pocket. It was a text from Jace. I unlock my phone and read the text.
From Jace:
"Hey Gracie, I was wondering if maybe you want to go to dinner tonight?"

I'm not leaving Shawn on his birthday for another guy.

"I can't tonight, but I can tomorrow night." I respond. I put my phone back down next to me and bite softly down on my tongue. I was about to think about when I almost kissed Shawn this morning but then He appears in front of me, sitting down.

"Hey." Shawn says. He looks like he's been crying too. He has a tired expression on his face almost like he's high.

Now I feel bad for Shawn it's my fault, I brought Brian here. "Hey." I look out the window at the take a deep breath. I lean forward and put my elbows on my knees, that are criss cross. "I'm sorry, I should have known it wouldn't have been a good idea for Brian to come."

He shakes his head. "No, no it was great. It was just emotional, but a good kind of emotional, if that even makes sense."

"It does, I just don't want you to be sad."

"Gracie, I'm a fucking ghost, sad comes with it." He chuckles. I smile at him looking into his nice brown eyes.

"Right." I look around my room. "Well it's still your birthday for ten more hours, what now?" I look back into his eyes and he looks into mine. I felt my breathing slow down. I was in a weird trance, and something told me he was in one too.

Shawn leaned forward into the same position I was in. "I want to touch you." My eyes widen and I blush, hearing him say those words. His did too, I don't think he meant for it to come out like that. "I-I mean, not In like a se-sexual way. L-Like In a, I'm a ghost and now I can touch things kind of way."

I gave a short soft laugh. Then I lean back trying the think and let out a long breathe. "Well, first, be solid, look completely alive." He straightened up and did just that. He looked human, like if I wanted to, I could just stick my hand out and touch him. "Okay now, channel a sad memory, think about all of the stuff you are missing because." I pause. "You're dead." I say softly. He closes his eyes and try's to concentrate.

Shawn opens his eyes and nods. "Okay, I'm ready." He quietly says. We both stick out our hands at the same time. Before we touch we both look at each other and take a deep breath.

Then our hand touched I could feel him again. His skin was like ice but I didn't want to stop touching it. We looked up at each other and started to laugh.

Shawn's eyes widen and he stops laughing. He disappears and reappears on my desk chair. I run over to desk and stand behind Shawn. I think he's about to try to use the computer. He then closes his eyes again trying to focus. "Okay, here goes nothing." he smirks.

Shawn touches the computer mouse and shakes it. "Holy shit." I chuckle in awe. The computer wakes up and Shawn immediately goes to Netflix.

"Yes, now I can watch Netflix all I want!" Shawn yells spinning around in the chair.

"Great." I whisper sarcastically under my breathe. I know I'm not going to get anymore sleep. This is all he's going to do, forever.

Shawn grabs my waist and picks me up off of the ground. He was laughing so hard the whole time. Then he hugged me my feet still off the ground. My arms were around his neck and his face was against mine. I could feel his muscles, under his jacket and shirt. "I swear to god Mendes, if you drop me." I whisper in his ear.

"Oh, shut up." He laughs before spinning me around. I start to yell and laugh really hard.

All of a sudden I hear a knock on my door. Oh god! My eyes widen and Shawn puts me down giving a scared look. I quickly sit down on the desk chair. By now Shawn has disappeared. "Come in." I yell to the person outside my door.

My mom peeks her head through the door. "Hey baby, I'm home. Are you okay? I heard yelling and laughing."

"Um yeah." I glance at my computer. "I was just watching a movie. Sorry, it was a roller coaster of emotions."

"Okay, I was just making sure there wasn't a boy in here." My mom seriously jokes about guys all the time. If she only knew about Shawn. Ewww I don't even want to think about that. I give her a half smile before she closes the door.

Then I feel my phone go off again in my back pocket.
Form Jace
"Yeah, I can do tomorrow. I'll pick you up at 8!"

I smile looking at the text.

"I was just making sure there wasn't a boy in here." I turn and see Shawn mocking my mom. He has his hands on his hips and the same smile my mom does. It made me instantly laugh.

A/N Okay guys because you guys were commenting on my last chapter I did earlier today I decided to do another one! Hope you enjoyed!

I'll try to make another one tomorrow!

Stay tuned for Gracie's date with Jace 😏