Starting Over

Damn it.

Trending on twitter
David Dobrik and Natalie Noel expecting a baby!

David and Natalie endgame?

David Dobrik posts announcement about the newest vlog squad member set to arrive in November.

And the ones that piss me off

Natalie Noel using David for his fame and money?

I posted the picture of the announcement 2 weeks ago now. 1 week since I posted the video.

A week and a half since Natalie left to Chicago, to see her family.

We were still trending.

And not for the best reason, for Natalie. Which is why she's not here.

I sat on the floor and set the camera up. I pressed record, sat back and fixed my hair.

"Hey guys, this is gonna be a serious video, I know I don't have many of those..."

I looked down at my hands.

"...I made the mistake of hooking up with someone, I always wanted, while I was drunk. But I don't regret it. I don't regret Natalie and I don't want to ever see the rude comments about her or us...."

I looked back up

"...I can't be the reason that she's miserable. She's pregnant. And I care about all of you, you're the reason I'm here. But I need you to support her, support us."

I sighed, and leaned back, throwing my head back.

When I sat back up I leaned forward.

"I've used YouTube as a major platform to spread love, and share memories, and be crazy with my friends, and that is still what I'm going to do, I have not closed this book, I've just moved onto the next chapter, and I'm excited to see how this book keeps going..."

I sighed and shook my head

"...I still have all the same friends. I will still do crazy shit, and live life to the fullest, all while showing that to my kid. Showing him or her, the world while showing the world this."

I held my arms up, and turned to the side.

"I adore Natalie, and I always have. Anyone of the people around me that don't support that, whether it's friends, family, or fans, won't be in my life."

I stood up and turned the camera off.

I didn't go back for 2 hours.

When I finally did I sat down. Turned the camera on, took a deep breath, continuing on.

"I am excited to start this new journey. Document another chapter in my life."I nodded.

"So that's the end of this. Thank you for listening and supporting."

I ended it, threw the memory card into the computer, imported all the clips, and didn't edit just threw it up, and posted.

I fell asleep and woke up 2 hours later to 16 missed calls and 60 texts.

Missed calls:
2 from Nat❤️
1 from Carly Incontro
4 from Josh
6 from Jase🙄😁
1 from Alex
2 from Corinna

Messages:
Nat❤️: text me when you get this. I wanna talk..
Sent 12:36

Corinna:davidddd
Sent 12:42

Josh: you okay cub? Wanna go get food?
Sent 12:43

Carly, Erin, David (groupchat) :
Carly: hope your okay Dave text us if you need anything we're here xoxo c&e
Sent 12:46

Corinna: answer meeee
Sent 12:51

Jase: Hey Dave, hope you're doing okay. I'll come over later tonight we can talk or just watch a movie and have food.
Sent 12:51

Bj Calv: hey pussy!
Sent 12:52

Jeff: hey uh you okay?
Sent 12:59

Durte Dom: hey man hope your okay hit me and Alex up later.
Sent 1:03

Matty king: hope your doing alright. Don't let the negativity get to you.
Sent 1:11

Kwisten: I talked to Natalie earlier I hope you guys are okay.
Sent 1:14

Ilya: I need to tell you something.
Sent 1:18

Heath: let's talk man.
2:04

The text from Ilya stood out to me.

I pressed his name, and called him.

He answered on the second ring.

"I'm in love with Natalie, and I've spent the whole week with her."

That was the first thing I heard, and then I hung up.

I pressed the next name.

Calling Heath

"Hello?"

I picked up my keys, and slipped my shoes on.

"I'll be by to pick you up in 10."

"Okay everyone is here."

"Okay."

I hung up, and drove over to the house.

I honked three times.

Jason, Josh, Carly, Erin, Jeff, and Scotty came out.

Heath walked out after with Zane and, he turned and said something, before he walked to the car.

"Wanna hang here?"

I turned forward, shaking my head no.

He nodded, and hopped in the car.

I drove for awhile before I spoke.

"Ilya asked me to call him."

Heath turned to me.

I kept my eyes on the road, driving just at speed limit.

"He's in love with Natalie, he always has been, and he's with her right now."

It was quiet.

"She's pregnant with my baby, and Ilya decides to tell me now."