Starting Over

Almost There

"How have you been Tana?"

She threw her head back and laughed, "You look so concerned, no I've been good, no really stop making that face!" She laughed louder.

I nodded and chuckled a little.

"So you're like....on drugs?" She questioned.

I had just gotten my wisdom teeth removed.

"Not like bad drugs, like I'm not loopy." I rolled my eyes.

"But you're gonna teach me how to drive?"

"Yeah."

"In your expensive ass Tesla." I rolled my eyes.

"I don't think you are that bad Tana."

"David I've only drive 5 times."

My face dropped a little. Maybe she sucks.

"Well don't kill me I have a family."

I stood up as she laughed.

"Let's go."

Carly and Erin came with us.

She wasn't that bad, she just panicked a lot. We pulled up to a red light and she turned to me.

"So can I like, ask you personal questions?"

"Sure." I pushed my hair back, and adjusted her camera.

"Do you like being a dad?" She laughed, she's very blunt.

I nodded, "jumping right in" Carly laughed.

"So no?" Tana laughed again.

"No I do. I love being a dad. I think there are definitely opportunities that I miss out because I'm a dad so young, but I enjoy it, it's more rewarding than anything else I've done in my life. I probably wouldn't be able to do it without Natalie."

She nodded, "so serious."

It was my turn to laugh, "I wouldn't have agreed to a second one if I didn't like the first."

She cackled leaning over.

"Pay attention!"

She jumped back into her seat still laughing to herself.

Tana is very flirty.

She always had been with me though, and at this point, I hardly noticed.

We got back to my house and Tana made a joke. It wasn't long before Natalie had strayed away from Ilya to sit next to me.

"Hi babe."

"Hi." She mumbled.

"What's the matter?"

She glanced at Tana who was filming Zane and Matt now as Zane was kissing Matt's head.

"She flirts with you a lot." She whispered.

Now I understood. She was jealous.

"Now you know how I feel, when all these boys are all over you."

Natalie hopped up and stared at me for a second before she walked away.

I followed.

"Babe?" She sat down on our bed and I closed the door.

"I know it hurt you, because I was upset cause Ilya did that. But I was never gonna choose him David, I chose you so long ago, I'm in love with you."

I crossed my arms leaning against the wall.

"He called me, and you were editing, and he gave me this long speech and it confused me and it hurt me, because I didn't understand, I didn't understand why, every time I got happy with you or something monumental happens he's there to make me doubt myself. And that's not a friend."

I looked at my feet.

"But you have been there always David. you've been there when I'm broken, when I'm sad, mad, happy, excited, you have never left my side, you have never pushed me to do things I didn't feel good doing, but you've pushed me past my comfort zone to do unbelievable amazing things that I never thought I'd do. But you never make me feel bad for being happy. And I love you."

"Nat..."

"Let me finish."

I nodded.

"I'm nice to Ilya and he thinks he has a chance because I don't know how to turn around and tell him I don't even want to be his friend anymore. But I was never gonna leave you, I never cared about others flirting with me. I adore you and I love you. The way you interact and love our daughter drives me crazy and makes me fall for you all over again. Your laugh makes my day, your smile brightens the room."

She stared at her feet not looking up at me.

"I said yes to you surrounded by our friends because I want to spend forever with you David."

She was crying.

I felt like shit.

I walked over and grabbed her chin, gently pulling her eyes to mine.

"I want to spend forever with you too, beautiful."

She gave me a watery smile, sniffles, and wiped her tears, nodding.

"I never wanna see you cry because you're doubting us." I dropped to a crouch in front of her.

"I adore you too Nat, especially while your pregnant, and still keeping up with a 1 and a half year old."

She bit her lip and looked down, one hand going to her belly.

She's about 4 months pregnant now, she's due October 8th

Both our kids have and will be born before Christmas which I love, this Christmas will be more fun, because Aria will understand a bit better. But I love having Aria for Christmas, so much more fun when you have kids.

"How are you feeling angel?"

"Good. I'm good, he's good, we're both good."

I looked up at her, a little confused.

"Huh?"

She smiled a little.

She slid off the bed, walked to our closet, and came back with a little box.

I opened the box and inside was a blue onesie, it said little brother, and a matching shirt that said big sister.

"Nat..."

"When I went to that appointment, when you couldn't get the meeting moved, it was a different doctor, mine was sick, she told me on accident. But I thought, it would be cute if I got to surprise you this time, just me and you."

I laughed and wiped my own tears.

"One of each?"

She nodded and smiled. "Sucks a little we have to get new clothes and stuff and spend money again but, a little boy."

I hugged her tightly, "a son." I mumbled and she nodded.