Missing Pieces

Chapter#06: Those Dazzling Eyes

This is my FAVOURITE CHAPTER. Continue reading, hope you'll like it.

From day 2, I was good enough. I went early and occupied the first seat. I got that seat comfortable for me. The first lecture used to be of English literature. Literature class didn't just have fine arts students, but also students from Medicine, Business and Music were there to attend. A girl sitting beside me asked me for my name. I told her and I discovered that she was also from Red Feather. She was from Medicine. So I never noticed her. She recognised me because of my art work in school magazine. Hailey was a nice girl, quiet and shy. I still talk to her sometimes. I still didn't look around whosoever is a part of my class. I entered class, studied with full concentration and left. This was my routine.
Just after two days, I went down with Hailey after the class. I was waiting for my dad to pick me up. Hailey was calling someone, meanwhile, a classmate of ours came and asked Hailey if she's comfortable going home. That was the first time, I saw him. I thought may be he's her boyfriend or friend or something. I didn't ask her. I didn't find it cool to ask her. He was cute anyway.
In the next class, he showed up with a note book and gave it to Hailey. I looked at him again. I don't know why I looked at him. It was of no use. Either I accept it or not, but I was attracted to him. But after that day, I restricted myself that I won't look at him again. I didn't want to disturb my studies. I didn't look at him again. Two months passed like this and near was the Exam Break. I felt bad about this break. I didn't look at him, but I felt him missing every day he was absent in class.
The vacations began and I couldn't get him out of my head. I was thinking that it isn't possible for me to forget such dazzling eyes which captivated my every dream. I just remembered, the look I gave him when he caught my eye at first. I had to do something. I didn't even know his name. I couldn't leave myself to think about him all the time. And I couldn't even propose him. It wasn't that easy for me. I made up my mind to focus on studies and I'll ask him about this just after admission in college. I prepared myself to study and wait for the right time.
I was feeling weird. It wasn't usual for me. I fell for someone like this!
I started preparation for exams, those two months were difficult but exams went well.
After High School exams, we had an Annual Dinner, as it was the final year. Finally, the school life came to an end. Result was awaited but at least we didn't have to go daily for school lectures.
So, I was so happy to know that I'll see him again as the Exam Break ended and entry test preparation classes started again. I attended the class and I saw him again. Just once. And I just knew one thing about him, he was a business student.
Two more months passed like this and now my interest in studies was growing again. It was a good sign.
My one sided love was growing silently for those pure eyes. I couldn't even feel when his love made a room in my heart and it was like he was within me somewhere since forever. I was afraid to lose him. My silent love would always remain silent and that silence would kill me someday. I read somewhere, Deepak Chauhan wrote, "One sided love is the purest form of love. It is the most painful and heartbreaking of all. Falling in love with someone you know you can't have and yet you love them more than you ever loved yourself. It's a journey without any destination or hope".
I think that's the only form of love exists truly. Sandeep Maheshwari, an Indian motivational speaker says that love is always one sided as you love some things of yours, those things don't love you back, hence, love is always one sided. You devote your whole life to someone even though you know that he doesn't even know you exist. But still, I had some hope inside me. I had planned something. Something big. I had planned a perfect proposal but I was waiting for the right time to come. I didn't know it would be so bad for me.

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