Missing Pieces

Chapter#22: To The Moon & Back

"Mommy, why don't we keep daddy with us? We have a room in spare, or we can share a room with him."
"Sebastian... it's not like what you're thinking. It's something else."
"I wanna know mom, I can understand now."
"Oh dear.. alright... Your daddy loved another lady, so I let him go."
"Why didn't you stop him?"
"Mark my words, sometimes, you need to value someone else's happiness and emotions. Sacrifice is tough, but it's satisfying later. And when you let someone go, they realise some day, they realise how much you loved them. So, never hold on to those who don't wanna stay. Are you getting it?"
"Yes.. and didn't he care about me?"
"Daddy loves you a lot baby, but he didn't know then, that he had a son, a brave son like you, otherwise who could've left such an adorable kid?"
I giggled him.
"So I have another mom?"
"Yes."
"I won't call her mom, only you're my mom."
"Oh don't be like that. You're my son. You're not like other bad kids. You know how to respect relations? I think I'm right."
"Fine mommy, only if you say."
"Well, I don't think there will be a day when you'll meet that other lady and you will have to call her mom."
Sebastian was looking at me with serious expressions.
"Now go to bed. It was a tiring day and your birthday was also so much different from the usual ones. I'll answer your thousand more questions tomorrow!"
"I love you mom, goodnight."
"I love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond."
I turned out the lights of Sebastian's room and came out in the lounge. And then I remembered how I used to say the words to Sedrick, "I love you to the moon and back", he even got sarcastic with this too.He even used to ruin sexting with his sarcasm. Those days were the best days of my life. So much time spent. And it was only Sebastian, whose eyes motivated me to live a life, otherwise, I would have completely lost my way. I had no hopes left to live on, but then, God blessed me with Sebastian.
A month spent in these chaos. Sebastian had assessments near. Sedrick called every night to talk to Sebastian, and asked if he needed something, but my baby never let my pride down. Every weekend Sedrick took Sebastian for an outing. I couldn't stop him, he was his dad after all.
"Hello, Silvestra?"
"Yes? Now what?"
"I wanted to talk about something."
"What is it?"
"Tomorrow is Skylor's first birthday, and I want you and Sebastian to be there..."
"We have nothing to do with it. And yes, happy birthday to the lovely baby."
"Thank you, but that's not enough, please Silvestra, you're still stubborn as you were years before, you never listen to me."
"So?"
"Oh please! Don't be like that. I say, please!"
"I'll ask Sebastian, if he's ok with it, I'll tell you then."
"Alright."
I bought Sebastian a bicycle. He rode to home by himself now. He came home and I told him everything that Sedrick said.
"Mom... it's no use to deny, what's wrong with fixing everything together, it's not a bad idea I guess... "
"Uhh Sebastian, that just makes me uncomfortable. I'm not comfortable with Sedrick anymore, I get anxiety attacks whenever he comes in front of me."
"Mommy, you can get back into daddy's life. Just try. Try to forget the past. I won't force you, I'll go with your decision, I care for you more."
I couldn't believe, my seven years old boy was saying these things. Tough times had made him much wiser. Since Sebastian turned 7, I never took any decision without his consent.
"Alright, we'll go, call your dad and ask him to pick us up, we won't go by ourselves!"
"Haha, ok mom!"
He called Sedrick and talked for hours. I wondered about what they used to talk about for so long every night... But I felt happy to see the real smile on Sebastian's face.