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Just Try

"Bring her home Sarah." I hear from her phone.

"Mom its not going to get better if we up and leave for Florida." She cries. "I just don't know what to do. I love her so much mom." Her sobs get louder and I feel her pull away from me. "I can't be her girlfriend and this at the same time, I can't fix it. I don't know how."

I can't hear her mother anymore.

"She was gonna leave me." Is the last thing I hear before she leaves the room.

I open my eyes and rub them roughly. I feel gross from my tears staining my face. I want an out. It feels impossible to even breathe. I can't believe the way I've been lately. I speak and act before thinking and its not okay.

That picture was so old. I've heard Sarah tell Lily how much she loves me. Lily is married. It's not really even my buisness that they dated when they were younger.

Fuck. I pull myself out of bed and head downstairs. I grab my clothes off the floor and shove them back into the bags I packed earlier.

"I'll talk to you later." I hear Sarah say from the kitchen.

I walk my stuff up the stairs, to our room, and start putting everything away. I'm almost done when I hear footsteps approaching the door.

"You scare me sometimes, you know that right?" She says weakly.

"Yeah." I mumble and let myself fall to the floor in front of our dresser.

"You have an appointment with the therapist at the school tomorrow morning at 7."

"Sarah!"

"End of conversation." Her voice is a kind of strict that ive never heard before. "If you don't go theyre going to send you to a behavioral health hospital and I don't want to see you go through that."

"It hurts." I numbly say as my tears start up again.

"I know." She pulls me into her arms and holds me for a minute before leading me to the bed. She lets me cuddle up to her and rest my hand on her side, under her shirt. I like holding onto her side for some reason.

She lays with me and puts the tv on for background noise. We're on our third episode of Bewitched when I decide to pull my hand from her hip and slide it gently to between her thighs to cup her.

"No, baby." She grabs my hand and laces our fingers together. "Not when youre so upset."

I dont need a therapist to tell me I use sex to defuse arguments. Not even just that but in most situations. If we fight or something happens I always pull Sarah to the bedroom. I know its not good and she's been catching on to it more lately.

"I wanna go." I mumble.

"Where baby?" She runs her fingers through my hair.

"Anywhere. I don't want to stay in Illinois after I graduate." I put my hand back under her shirt. "Florida."

"Then we'll go." She strokes my cheek.

"Kiss please?"

She gently pulls my face to hers and locks her lips to mine. I love her lips so much. She licks my bottom lip then lightly nips at it with her teeth. I open my mouth and let her take full control of the kiss. Her hand is cupping my jaw and the other squeezing my butt. We don't ever just make out anymore and I've missed it. Sarah keeps it slow and gentle this time then leaves three little pecks on my lips and cheeks.

"Please just try, for me." A single tear runs down her cheek. "Okay?"

"Okay."

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Surprise mother truckers! Two updates in less than 32 hours?? Witchcraft!
Kidding I was just really excited to keep writing. Like and comment babes❤❤