Peter parker & Avengers// One shots

Feelings: So hard to explain

Summary: Tony and the Avengers are working all day and night to piece this broken kid back together again. With many, many bumps in the road.

TW: Panic attacks, bullying, violence, vomiting, cussing, depression, anxiety, self harm.

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Once Peter calmed down Tony helped him back onto his feet.

"So I was thinking that we could spend the day together, what do you say? We could watch movies and play games, anything you want to do we can do it." Tony said as he walked back towards the living room, one arm protectively hung over the shoulders of his kid.

Peter didn't answer, he just gave a sort of 'mfff' sound to let Tony know that he heard. He wanted to say, 'OH that would be AMAZING Mr.Stark I can't wait to hang out with you, but don't you have meetings?' But that little 'mfff' was all he could manage.

Tony noticed the kids silence and started talking again. "So Bambino, what do you want to do?"

"I don't know" He said quietly.

"Oh come on Bambi, I'm sure theres something" Tony pried, a little but not too much. He didn't want to use too much pressure and crack the kid in two.

"I guess, can we just go to the park." It was the first thing to squeeze its way into his busy mind. 'You can go to the park, it's free and maybe you can leave and Tony could have some peace. You are a burden after all'. He was surprised when that thought popped up but found himself believing it.

"Yeah, that sounds like fun. Hey maybe everyone could go" Tony said, thinking the kid would like the idea of having a lot of people to talk to and be around.

'Oh god, now i'm going to burden everyone. They are going to be distracted when they are forced to go out because of me' He shook away the thought and said, "Yeah, sounds fun" A small smile followed the lie, making it seem like he was genuinely happy.

Tony lead his kid to his bedroom and told the kid to shower and change, and then walked into the living room to tell his team about the plans.

"Alright everyone, we are going to the park with the Kiddo today. And no you can not get out of it"

"Why would we want to, I want to know the kid" Said Clint, it was clear he already wanted Peter on his side for the prank wars.

"Ok, so thats settled we leave as soon as he's done" Tony announced and sat down.

Meanwhile:

Peter walked into his room and heard his mentors footsteps get fainter and fainter, well more like until he knew that he was away from his room. With his hearing he heard their conversations and how Clint said he wanted to get to know Peter. Peter knew he was just saying that to be nice, but he didn't have to worry.

Peters thoughts started to cloud his head as he walked into the bathroom and started the shower.

'Worthless'

'A burden'

'You killed us all'

Thats the one that stuck the most, he had killed his whole family. He was all alone and it was his fault. So before he stepped into the shower he decided to do something that he hadn't done since before Spider-Man. He reached under the sink and grabbed a razor, he slammed it on the floor to crack the protective layer and held the blade in front of his face.

He struggled to take in a breath, was he really going to do this? He promised himself a while ago that he would stop, that he would never do it again. However he brought his wrist up and the blade down until they met halfway, he made a deep incision on his forearm, thankful that his healing would stop him from doing too much damage. He didn't want the Avengers to find out and be burdened with taking any more care of him.