Peter parker & Avengers// One shots

It hurts// Peter

Summary: Peter tells everyone he's fine, every day he puts on his fake smile and laughs a force laugh. People actually believe he's fine, they think he's the happy go lucky teenage boy with not a care in the world. They are wrong, so wrong. Peter is trapped in his own mind, the second those doors close he's gone, he's no longer the happy kid. He becomes someone so troubled that it hurts, he would do anything to feel normal but nothing works.

TW: Self harm, depression, anxiety attacks, suicidal thoughts and suicide attempt, eating disorder

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Peter was a happy kid, anyone who ever met him would know that. What they wouldn't know is that it's all a lie. Every day Peter wakes up and wishes he didn't, wished he could just slip away once and for all. Maybe it would be better that way, he could be free and everyone else could have peace with him gone.

Peter took a deep breath, he had to go to school in twenty minutes and pretend to be ok. Boy is that hard, bottling everything up and pretending like the only thing in your head are rainbows and butterflies. When in reality the only thing in your head is darkness, and the occasional storm that rolls through. Filling your head with thoughts that make you sick to the point you can't eat.

Peter couldn't let that show thought, so he got ready and greeted his aunt with a smile. He'd gotten pretty good at pretending to be fine, but sometimes people who are close to him can see through the mask. They start to look at him with worry in their eyes, when he wished they would just look away. He didn't want people to pay attention to him, didn't want to talk about his feelings because if he started he didn't think he'd be able to stop.

"Good morning Pete, want breakfast I made pancakes?" May said while hugging Peter.

"No thanks May I'll eat later, not hungry right now" He lied, he wasn't going to eat later. He was telling the truth about not being hungry, it might be one of the only things he isn't lying about.

"Oh well ok then, bye Pete have a great day" She turned back to her food as Peter left. He made his way downstairs and saw Happy waiting for him.

"Hey Happy" Peter said with fake cheerfulness. Happy just rolled his eyes and started driving. See he thinks your annoying he would probably be happy if you died he could finally spend the mornings with people he actually liked. Because no one likes you Peter pathetic Parker.

"Kid were here" Peter snapped back to reality and said a quick sorry before scrambling out of the car. He hurried into the school keeping his head down when he passed Flashes locker. But his Parker luck struck him In the form of a hard shove to his back by the Flash he was trying to avoid.

"Penis Parker how you doin today? Huh did any more relatives die to escape you? Oh right there are none left to die except for your aunt right. I bet she's just waiting for the best time to kick the bucket" Flashes words stung they always did but he let them roll off his back and was thankful when MJ strolled over and shoved Flash as hard as she could.

"Fuckwad Flash Titty Thompson, it's horrible to see you as always. Why don't you scurry along before I make you kick the bucket huh? That wouldn't be fun for you would it?" Flash stumbled away he was scared of MJ. It's a good thing she was friends with Peter, if he didn't have her he didn't know what he would do.

"Thanks MJ" He said forcing the same smile into his face. Just then Ned walked over.

"Hey guys"

"Hey Ned" MJ and Peter said at the same time.

"How are you doing Peter?" Peter knee that Ned had suspicions, he had been friends with Peter long before he started to slip down the hole and could tell the signs but never said anything, and Peter was great fuel for that.