Chapter 9
I did a lot of thinking for the past days. And I thought, maybe I'm just confused. Siguro ay naguguluhan lang ako ngayon.
I've never been in love and I never really know the feeling. So it's not good to assume I'm having feelings for someone I barely know. Dapat ay hindi ko pinangungunahan ang nararamdaman ko.
Right, maybe I'm just confused.
I actually want to talk to my sisters about it. They know better. Especially Love, who's been courted by a guy for 2 years now. She's in love and I know she can help me figure things out. Pero ayokong panunukso lang ang makuha ko sa kanila kaya nahihiya akong magsabi.
Rolling on my bed for the nth time, I decided to stop thinking about anything that has something to do with Sir Troy. Gumugulo lang kasi ang isip ko kapag naliligaw siya sa isip ko.
In the middle of my not-so-dramatic stunt on my bed, I was hit by a pillow. Nang mag-angat ako ng tingin ay nakita ko si Love na kunot-noong nakatingin sa akin.
"What?" I asked, saka umayos na ng upo. Konti na lang talaga baka isipin na ng mga kapatid ko na nababaliw na ako, which I think is really going to happen anytime now.
Agad na nameywang si Love sa harapan and raised a brow at me. "What's happening with you? Para kang tanga diyan," she commented.
Ayan. Nagtatanong na siya. Nahahalata na nga nilang may bumabagabag sa akin.
"Nothing," I replied quickly. Now's just not the right time to say stuff about these confusing feelings of mine. "Ba't ka nandito?" I asked.
Agad namang nawala ang kunot ng noo niya saka napalitan ng masayang ekspresyon. She excitedly sat on my bed. "Right. I'm just here to ask you if you wanna go to the concert with me. Nasabihan ko na si Faith and she's coming. I have VIP tickets!" Masayang sabi niya.
I love concerts. I love watching local bands sing on stage. I love witnessing people singing their hearts out. I love music. At kung may tamang lakas ng loob lang ako, I would want to sing on stage too. Kaso hindi pa ako ganoon ka-confident.
"Of course, I'll go!" I answered.
"Great! 6 pm later ha! You'll drive," Love said happily. May magagawa pa ba ako? Of course, ako ang dakilang driver sa amin.
"Yeah."
It's still 3 in the afternoon kaya bumalik na muna ako sa paghiga sa kama nang umalis si Love. I was just staring at the ceiling when my phone beeped.
I got a message from Clarisse that asks if I'll go to the concert. Nireplyan ko naman agad at sinabing pupunta ako. After a few seconds ay tawag naman ang natanggap ko mula sa kanya. I answered the call at ang matinis niyang boses ang sumalubong sa akin. I had to distance my phone from my ear because of it.
"Magka-car kayo, right?" Bungad niya.
"Yup."
"Sabay ako ha. Punta ako diyan in a while. Nag-aayos lang ako."
"Okay."
"Yay! This is exciting!" She said. "Handa na akong makikanta, sumigaw at umiyak! December Avenue, here I come!!!" Dagdag niya ulit nang pasigaw. I had to distance my ear from the phone again.
After the call ay nagsimula na rin akong mag-ayos ng sarili. I just chose to wear my Maroon shirt paired with high-waist maong shorts and sneakers. Kinuha ko na rin ang hoodie ko and tied it around my waist.
After changing into my concert outfit ay lumabas na ako ng kwarto, leaving my hair in a messy bun. Naupo na muna ako sa sofa and waited for my sisters.
Few minutes and Clarisse arrived. Sayang-saya pa siya habang papasok ng bahay at naupo sa tabi ko.
