The Prince's Heart.

CHAPTER 32.

AHSAB

Standing so close to Anan made my entire body wild, it was impossible for someone to be this beautiful and attractive, but then I guess it was. I studied her as she did her chores, at that moment she didn't have any care in the world aside from making sure the dishes were sparkling clean. Her olive skin shone due to the immense sunlight from the windows, her full lips were parted, her eyebrows were furrowed and she looked so beautiful.

Not to mention she smelt so fucking good I couldn't help but wonder how she tasted like.

Creep.

At some moments she hummed and a strand of hair fell from her scarf it was black, probably the darkest shade there was. I wanted so bad to tug it back for her behind her ear. I didn't.

I was glad Anan gave me another chance even though I had messed up a lot of those chances I gained back. I just needed her to forgive me and be by my side even if it was a as a friend, I would settle for that.

Despite it not seeming so I've watched Anan over the past few months, since the first day she stepped into my suite she had me. My heart knew it was gone when it stared at her petite frame. I noticed her. A lot.

I noticed how her eyes instantly got wide when she was happy, how when she was sad or was about to cry always placed a hand over her chest. I noticed that with anything unfamiliar she would slightly jump.

I wanted to know Anan. The real her. She once stated that she wanted to know me in a place where I wasn't the prince that's how I felt. I wish we had different lives and had met on different circumstances not where she was a worker and I was the Crown Prince.

I'd been selfish. I am selfish. I know that I can never give her what she deserves but I still chase her maybe because I can't stand the thought of her getting what I wish to give to her from another. I know one thing maybe I won't give her a lot of things but I'll lo-.

Not love- I don't love her.

I didn't know what I felt it was definitely not a childhood crush, it was more than anything that a man could feel for a woman. It took control of me. I'm scared that she'll see me for what I really am and go away from me because I know I'll do anything for her to accept me, to be with me. I'll wait. All my life if I have to.

"Stop"I snap back to reality when I hear her voice. I had quite forgotten I was in the kitchen because I'd been overwhelmed with my thoughts about her.

"What?"I ask, I realized Anan was done with everything while I just gaped at her like love struck fool, which I was.

"Staring"she washes her hand. "It's rude"she adds then turns around. I wash my hands under seconds and face her following her out of the kitchen. When we're out she exhales a deep breath which seemed to be of relief. She needed not to worry I wouldn't allow anything to happen to us, to her.

I place my hands on her shoulders reluctantly and she tensed. Ayesha had no idea that touching her made my skin like fire and it was getting burned by second, but it was air at the same time something you couldn't live without. I lean down and whisper"I'm sorry but you're just so fucking gorgeous I can't tear my eyes away"

Looking at her I really couldn't remember the last time someone took my breath away, I don't think it had ever happened to me, for someone to take my breath away. But it seemed like with Anan everything was a first. She was a first, there was no one like her, I don't think there'd ever be someone like her.

She was rare. A gem. She was the kind of person that anyone would look up to, she was kind without even realizing it. She illuminated a room with her presence, she didn't realize that when she walked into a room people noticed her, noticed her timid behavior, noticed her aura.

Anan walked in front of me as we were out of the kitchen. I followed her suite as we made our way to the living room where Munira's meeting was held. I decided to take the advantage of Anan being in front of me by poking her sides. She immediately let out a squeal and turn around frowning, she furrowed her eyebrows and folded her arms.

The whole ordeal made me let out a laughter and Anan huffs though I can tell underneath she's hiding her own laughter. "Not funny"she says arms folded.

I reach out for her hand but she keeps it folded. "Cmon, Princess"I tell her but she shakes her head and walks away. I catch up to her and she turns around staring at me. Waiting for my next movement.

I unfold her arms and held her right hand. Her hand was little and soft, I caressed the back of her hand and she tried to pull away but it was in vain. I wasn't letting go, though it may seem selfish but I wanted her to myself even though I knew the damage it'd cause. But I was ready to protect her, to give her everything she needed, to make her happy. No matter what. Because she was happiness in all. She was my everything and more, I wouldn't want to live without her, if today she's gone, I'll be gone with her.

I was lost in her when she frantically pulled away taking a step backwards. I look up too see my Father and Grandfather walking. Fuck this, my day is done. The two people who constantly try to ruin my life are gracing me with their presence.

Anan disappears to the living room in guessing and I follow her path cause as she's scared of them I want to avoid them at all costs. I'm at the hallways to the  parlor when I hear them.

"Abdullah"Father was the first to speak. "We were looking for you"

Well isn't that obvious.

"Where do you go to"Grandfather said and I send a slight shrug his way. I don't want to speak but I remember that Anan is in a room a feet away probably hearing our conversation cause well we are quite close to them.

"I was actually on my way to Munira's meeting"I answer curtly.

They both nod and I can tell they came to inform me about something that would be pissing but oh fucking well. Father and Gradfather resemble each other in character, looks and attitude. They acted like each other and wanted me to be like them too.

"Ahsab tomorrow we are going to receive a very important guest that will change our country for the better, and through you of course"Father says and I raise one eyebrow, knew it would be irrelevant.

"You need to act very well as our reputation is in stake"Grandfather takes over. They continue talking for over twenty minutes but I don't hear them at all.

All I think of is that Anan is in a room just a few feet away and that alone drives me away.