The Prince's Heart.

CHAPTER 37.

AHSAB

This is bullshit.

I should've predicted it, this shit always whines up and me. My whole life luck has never been on my side talk less of God. It shouldn't have been a shocker when the one woman who I fell in love with doesn't love me back.

Love.

I had imagined my future many times as sappy as it sounded but I had never imagined that love had a place in it. I did believe in love, which did sound surprising but love. Love is the essence of life. So is the person you fall in love with. I'm a fool for falling for Anna but I really couldn't resist.

Fucking Anna.

Her name hunts me in my sleep and I'm a moody bastard since she's rejected me. Was I stupid enough to believe she'd actually like me? Yes. To be frank I was fine as fuck but I should have long known that Ana wasn't one to be down for looks. She seemed like one that didn't even care for men.

I decided to go for it cause fuck it she had me since day one, at first I thought I just wanted her in my bed but I guess I was wrong. I wanted more than that, I mean I wanted that too but I just wanted to be with her. Not long later I realized that I was falling in love with my angel.

Fuck! I'm becoming such a pussy.

I mean I did treat her like piece of shit but I really thought that after everything she would actually let go of it. Maybe she did, I didn't know. The only reason I ever treated Ana like that was because she was different, she was good, too good and I wanted her so I thought making her hate me would stir her way from me but she only came closer.

Now that I decided I wanted to be selfish, to be with her. It was too late, we had too many obstacles in between us- which didn't matter to me but mattered to her, clearly. She didn't want me, it was plain and I really couldn't force her to be with me.

I'm awake, it's 9:30. Munira is getting married in an hour, I don't really care bout all this. The only reason I'm here is because of Anan, I'm here even after she said I should forget her. Forget her, I huffed. How could I forget someone who makes my heart beat a thousand times faster.

All this thoughts of Ana, I don't want to think of her anymore. I don't wanna think of her face, her eyes, her nose and her lips. She was mine and the thought of any other man having her gives me the nerves. But in life we don't always get what we want.

I need some weed or a cigarette. I haven't had those in a long time. Or sex. Yes, sex is good. I haven't had sex in even longer, not since I've met Ana anyways. Drinks don't work, they last for only a couple of hours. I want something that'll make me feel something other than pain.

I'm at a point where I just need to let go, might not be what I want but I have to. That's what I need.

I drag myself up to the shower. I really need something, if I don't have something now my minds gonna explode. The only thoughts that are crossing through it are thoughts of her. Thoughts that need to go.

When I'm done getting ready everyone has already started filing to the place where Munira is having her wedding. Who the fucks wants to get married in the middle of nowhere, who even wants to get married at all. It's Faisal that's putting up with her shit, I really haven't got time for all this.

The sun hits hard when I step outside, I scan my eyes to see Tarim or whatever his name is. I gesture for him to come here cause if I don't get my shit now, I don't know what's gonna happen. He comes over and I speak up.

"Get me some cigarettes and a beer too"

"Of course sir"his voice sounds scared and I'm not suprised. I intimidate a lot of people and I damn love that feeling.