The Prince's Heart.

CHAPTER 46

Anan

Mama and I easily fell into a routine at Madinah. It was simple but it mostly consisted of taking care of Baba. He had gotten better but without proper care his health would be more damaged. I took the money from the King not because I wanted to but I needed it for Baba's treatment. He needed to better, I couldn't loose him after getting him back.

But then, there was Ahsab. I couldn't stop thinking about him, thinking about the times we spent. Letting him go was something I probably wouldn't ever be able to do but it was something that was necessary. Not when his whole family was opposed to us. Weeks have turned into more and we hadn't even tried to contact each other.

"Ayesha"I look up at Mama to see her half way feeding Baba and I realized she must have been talking to me but I hadn't noticed.

I answer quickly "Yeah"

"Pass me the lemons"she commands. We were currently at the breakfast table and I had zoned out as I did a lot these days. I pass her the lemons and she immediately starts squeezing them into his tea.

Baba had a nurse hired by the Royal Family. That was the only thing I was happy at least they didn't leave him alone to tend to himself. His nurse was a young man named Adam and he had taken good care of Baba. He liked having him around.

I like the new change. Mama and I are getting along, Alhamdulilah. Baba is getting better I should be happy. I am happy but not entirely because of Ahsab. I wonder if I would ever get over him. A part of me, a very selfish part wanted to meet Ahsab and tell him let's be together and be against the world but the other part of me knew that we weren't meant be together and that was it.

"Do you want to help me in the kitchen?"Mama asked quickly packing up the plates. I look up at her nodding my head but Baba interrupts.

"Maybe later Samira"he chips in. "Ana is taking me to a walk"

Mama shrugs before making her way to the kitchen. I smile know Baba just wanted me a way from the kitchen, he hated when I cooked maybe because of the way I hated it but now not so much.

"What?"he chuckles. "We're actually going for a walk"

Of course. I push his wheelchair as we made our way out of his Bungalow. It wasn't hard to find his home since the King had given me the address. I couldn't explain how happy it was to be back with him. I wish Ahsab would meet him.

Stop thinking about him. I remind myself.

I disliked the way my heart forgave him so easily. But it yearned for him it didn't care. "Ayesha"Baba speaks up.

"Hm"I answer, stopping. I check to see if everything was alright and he gives me a small nod. It's when I start walking that he says. "Your mother told me about the Prince"

I didn't know what to say. I felt a mixture of embarrassment, maybe Dad would think like everyone I seduced Ahsab. I was a whore, I wouldn't be able to live with myself if he thought of me that way.

"Why didn't you tell me"he said. "I thought we're close"

I chuckle. "Is my love life really necessary?"

"Of course"he says without hesitation. "I'd like to know about the man worthy of my Ana's love"

I shook my head and I knew he didn't see me but he could tell. He knew me that away.

"So, tell me about him"he inquires.

"Baba"I dragged.

"Ayesha"he replies in the same tone.

Only my Dad would like to know about his daughter that way. It was crazy and weird but I was so used to him. We talked about everything and nothing. "Well" I take a deep breath. "Ahsab is the most loving you could ever meet. When he loves, he does it wholly. He has these beautiful eyes that you can't help but get lost in" I chuckle. "That was the first thing I noticed about him. When you talk to him, he listens to everything you say and etches to his memory. He's funny too, he could make you laugh for hours. And annoying-very, when we watch a movie he always gives spoilers cause he reads them online. He has a huge  appetite like you and a very good eye, he takes the best pictures. He promised to always protect and love me. He thinks I am the weirdest most beautiful person he has every met and I quote. We had the best time together Baba"

By the time I end, I notice that tears were falling from my eyes I quickly wipe them afraid Baba will notice. He turns his wheels and extends into arms choking back a sob. He rubs my back slowly and I can't help but give in. I didn't understand why this happens to me.

"Why aren't you still having the best time together then daughter?" asks. I pull in and I see the worried look in his eyes.

"That's not Allah's plan for us"I answer.

"Maybe"he says. "But you can't let people dictate who you're with. Why do you need approval from others to be with him when you have his and most importantly yours"

I don't say anything.

"You need to make a choice or you'll regret it for the rest of your life"

As we walk back home those were the words that play in my head. Regret. I wasn't going to live any more of my life in that. I wanted and I needed to be happy even if that meant letting go. Because it happened. And I'm so grateful for that, I had him for the moments we spent.

So I decided to do it.

To reach out, I log in to my emails and log in before hurriedly typing.