TILL DEATH DO US PART {COMPLETED}

Confessions and Revelations

Becky's POV
It takes me awhile to recollect my thoughts after I'm resuscitated, I was hallucinating the whole thing.

Seth's right, I need to tell him about this, so at least if he decides to walk away I wouldn't be overly attached.

I look Seth straight in the eye, trying to summon enough courage to speak, to bring to light my darkness.

"Dove, I need you to understand this...I love you more than words will ever be able to explain and living without you is almost impossible, so nothing you say now will change the way I feel about you" Seth tells me, the honesty evident in his eyes and voice, my jaw cupped in his palms.

" See I have what wouldn't be your normal childhood, with a drunken father.... don't get me wrong he wasn't the problem, he only drank to wash away all the misery my...my... the woman that bore me cost him..." I begin, trying my best to hide the crack in my voice,moments like this are ones far from my proudest but then again I share them with only those I deem worthy enough to behold my tears.

"...My mo... the woman that bore me..." I say finding it increasingly difficult to call her the M word.
"... Well, she was just another wild party girl that wasn't ready to settle down,then a one night stand with that mysterious bad boy oozing sex appeal brought my brother into the picture, my father gave up all his bad boy ways when he found out that the woman that bore me was pregnant, but she wasn't quite ready to say goodbye to her ways, they almost lost my brother after one pregnant drinking night out of hers. They got married and later on had me,  for some time it was like things were falling into place and during that period, my father somehow fell in love with her... But then it happened..." I say, fighting the tears as best as I could.

" She got pregnant again, this time she did her possible best to take care of this one, but she had a miscarriage at about the 5th month of pregnancy and that's when everything started to fall apart...I was only 12 by then..."

" My mom was so devastated she fell back into...old habits, I was still young but I could tell this was slowly killing my father, he himself started drinking but that didn't stop him from Loving me,he tried his best but there came a bar fight that sent him to an early grave..."

At this point I burst into tears, every single smile, every comforting hug, every drunken cries they all come rushing back to me, overwhelming me. Seth holds me close, rubbing my back till I calm down.

" I'll never forget opening my front door excitedly, expecting my daddy just to see two cops, I thought it was all some sort of costume party or something, so I asked one of the cops if my daddy was hiding in their car... With a tear in his eyes he squatted to my level and told me that my daddy had gone far away and he might never return...I told him that he was lying that my daddy would never leave me and my brother that he didn't know what he was saying... I was barely fourteen"

" After my father's burial,I began to feel an emotion I couldn't explain because I was too young, it didn't hurt, not one bit...it was just... nothing. At that point I grew even closer to my brother till we were practically insaperable while my mom dug herself deeper into what would turn into my grave. Things got only worse because few months from my dad's death my mom brought home a guy..."

Just saying that name, goosebumps instantly appeared all over my body and I involuntarily shiver, I guess Seth noticed because he grabs my hand and encloses it in his. When I look at him he gives me an encouraging look.

" Damon, he was a few years younger than her, she was in her early thirties and he was in his early twenties, just a look at his face, though he was very handsome gave me the chills and his  aura nauseated me. I just didn't know why, but if it was instinct it sure was right. He tried being nice to me but I wasn't buying it one bit. The glint in his eyes told me about his devilish desires. I never called him Damon, I always called him demon and he always called me princess. Then a day came... my brother was at football practice while the woman that bore me was at...God knows where, it was just Damon and I at home"