TILL DEATH DO US PART {COMPLETED}

Hold on!!!

Becky's POV
I lie on the bed, the tears streaming down my face, every single event that has taken place bringing me nothing but absolute heart ache.

The look on Seth's face when I saw him two days ago... Knowing that it was I who left him with that look on his face broke me even more.

I hate myself for not listening to Seth, he kept saying Chris isn't a good person but I just wouldn't listen now my ego has cost me the love of my life. My only reason to leave has been snatched from me by my own stupidity, I let my guards down around Chris thinking he was a good guy and he took advantage of my growing trust.

I didn't kiss him back.

Infact I slapped the shit out of him the moment I pushed him off me and zoomed off in the speed of light, I felt too guilty to face Seth so I headed to my safety place, Charlotte's house but he was already there.

The moment Seth drove off, I felt something inside me cracking, his last words just had to be a question relating to a subject I was scared of the true answer.

" So that's why you could never tell me you loved me?" The question hasn't stopped echoing in my head adding to the long list of voices I've tried unsuccessfully to get out of my head.

I've started having lots of dangerous thoughts, and the only thing stopping me from listening to any of them is the last string of hope I have, which is seeing Seth at Dean and Renee's wedding.

It's something I both dread and want. I dread facing Seth because I feel like absolute trash and he looks at me in that exact way, but I want to see him so I can at least try to explain myself.

I have considered skipping the wedding but I'm one of the bridesmaids, also Renee would never forgive me for missing her wedding over some flimsy reason and Dean and I do have our history so skipping the wedding will just be giving the critics another reason to devour me.

I've been getting absolutely nothing but hate messages since the incident,no one remembered that it takes two to cheat ( that didn't even happen) no one as much glares in Chris's direction( except maybe Seth if he was here), his followership just increased drastically on all social media accounts and he even now has a fan page, while I have been trending on Twitter for all the wrong reasons and being crucified.

I couldn't care less about Chris or social media though,all I care about is Seth. They say you don't know the value of what you have till you loose it, I always thought that saying is stupid, that if you don't know the value of someone while you still have them, how can you value them when they're gone?

But now I understand that saying fully, I always knew Seth meant a lot to me but just not how much, but now I know. Even breathing air knowing that it's not his hurts, lying-in bed is painful because then I have to face the empty side of the bed which should be taken by Seth but he's not with me.... no,I chased him away from me.

I hate myself for letting him leave but somehow I hate him more for leaving, how easily he gave up on us after all the promises.

Charlotte enters the room as soon as the tears slowly roll down my cheeks, she doesn't say anything she just places me in a warm and comforting hug, in that instant I burst into full blown tears I didn't even realize I was holding back.

"He hates me" I whine through tears. "No he doesn't, he's hurt and his ego is injured" Charlotte replies soothingly as she rubs circles around my back.

I explained to Charlotte all that happened and she's been my support and the only thing stopping me from going completely insane,as usual.

Seth's POV