Drummer boy [5sos]

Chapter 12

I haven't really left the house much. the guys can see I'm not right and they are worried. I don't want them to be worried.

I guess I was starting to feel more like myself but then I went to Harry's funeral and it became real. he's not coming back. I won't hear his voice again.

I don't have a brother anymore.

And I've been having trouble getting my emotions out since I don't have my drum kit anymore. that's how I let my emotions out but I can't do that anymore.

I'm sitting in the lounge with Liz and my mum at the moment because the guys are at school. my mum still doesn't think I should be on my own even though the doctor said to trust me a bit more now.

I can't blame her though. you can tell I'm not in the right mind space and being alone means thinking way too much.

"I found a house that seems okay, would you like to come check it out later?" My mum asks me.

I don't really want to but I can see that my mums really hoping I'll say yes. I guess I've been distant and now I'm her only son.

"Sure" I say giving her a smile I'm hoping looks realistic.

"That's great!" She says excitedly "we can pick the boys up from school and drop them off where ever they want to go and then we can look at the house" I nod along.

I haven't even been aloud to pick the guys up by myself so I don't pick them up as often. this means I'll have to message them letting them know I'll pick them up.

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The car ride to school was silent.

We got to school and Calum ran up to my window "you need to come with me" he spoke in a serious tone. I turned around and looked at my mum who nodded at me. I got out of the car and follows Calum to wherever he was taking me.

"What's going on?" I asked

"Luke was in a fight and I need you to help me get him to the car" he responded and I was shocked. Luke never got into any sort of trouble. he liked to stay out of things. I might expect it from Calum and Michael but not Luke. that got me thinking.. where is Michael?

"Where's Michael?" I asked

"Principles office" he quickly responded. okay I have had enough of these simple replies he's got going here. I want to know what happened.

"Just tell me what happened will ya?" He didn't respond to that one and he was really starting to bug me. I looked around and noticed the looks I was getting. They weren't the usual looks I got. they were filled with sadness. it made me feel uncomfortable so I look down at the ground as I walked.

When Calum stopes I looked up to see Luke with a black eye. he look pretty out of it. Why didn't the school call Liz or send him to the hospital or something? "Luke! Are you okay?" He looked up at me and have me a small smile. "What the hell happened?!"

" They weren't gonna get away with saying that shit about MY mate" is all he said and I got a bad feeling that I was the mate he was talking about.

"Why's Michael in there?" I asked pointing at the principles office.

"Fuck, you should have seen him! He nocked the basterd out cold!" Luke replied. he defiantly wasn't himself. I slung one of his arms over my shoulder and Calum slung the other over his.

"I told him stop talking shit about you and he didn't so BAM I punched him!" Luke said and started to laugh a bit. if I didn't know any better I would of thought he was on drugs... "and then he kept hitting back and I was on the ground BUT THEN MIKEY SWOOPED IN!"

I feel so terrible, I'm not even at school anymore and I'm still causing people shit. when we got to the car my mum looked shocked. "can we put the house thing in hold, we need to get Luke home" she nodded and we sat him down in the backseat of the car.

"What do we do about Michael?" I asked Calum.

" He did more than nock the guy out, ash, he wouldn't stop even after he was out cold" I didn't know what to say "I guess seeing Luke on the ground like that set something off in him"

"So what going to happen?" I asked nervously.

"He might be expelled, I don't know, taken to court" this was fucked up and it was all my fault.

"Mum, can you drive?" I asked her not feeling up to driving.

"Sure, what happened?" She asked.

"Luke got in a fight" I simply replied and we drove back to Luke's.

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Liz wasn't home when we got back which I thought was a good thing. Luke needed rest and I didn't feel like answering questions and I figured Calum didn't either.

Luke was laying down on his bed and cal and I were sitting on the floor. "I'm so sorry" was all I could say.

"It wasn't your fault, Ashton. I knew you would blame yourself, I just knew it" it was quiet for a while. " it was the idiot who wouldn't shut up! He said you should have died Ashton! He can't say them things!"

He looked like he had tears in his eyes. I had never actually seen Calum cry. It didn't seem real, he wasn't the one to cry. I heard that he cried about Harry but i couldn't imagine it.

I didn't know what to say. I put my hand on his shoulder "it's alright, cal"

"No it's not alright!" He yelled " you almost died! Your my mate and you were almost gone and here he was saying that you should try again!" He was angry now but he quietened down a bit "how are people so horrible? I don't get it. Ashton, don't ever leave, your like family to me. Your my brother"

By then I had tears swelling up in my eyes and he was full on crying. I wrapped my arms around him. "I won't leave, cal, I promise"

It was quiet for a while until we heard a loud snore from Luke and we broke out in laughter.

"So what were you doing when everything happened?" I asked truly curious and had only just noticed a cut underneath his eye.

"When Michael got that creep away from Luke I dragged him to a chair and I was the one trying to pull Michael away"

I can't stop thinking about what Calum said. I may have lost Harry but these guys were still my brothers and we needed to look out for each other. I think I might go back to school.