After our little scene sa church, we decided to go barhopping first before kami uuwi. It's been a long time since the last time that we did it.
"Where to peeps?" Michael asked. Siya yung nagda-drive. Ako naman yung nasa front seat at yung tatlo eh nasa back seat. This is his car, actually. Lucky right? They're not that rich but they have some businesses here and there. Hindi naman ganun ka laki pero okay na rin.
"Club21 tayo." Lex said.
"Bakit doon? Eh ang daming minors. Sa Pulse nalang tayo." kontra ni Jem.
"Tama si Jem. Ang daming minors sa Club21. Nakaka out of place. Sa Pulse nalang tayo." sabi ni Michael.
"Ikaw Danna? San mo gustong pumunta?" asked Dan.
I was glad na hiningi niya yung opinion ko. Pero sana hindi nalang kasi ayokong magsalita eh. Ewan ko. I just want to stay quiet and reflect about what Dan said when we were still in the church.
"Kahit saan nalang." Then I smiled to all of them and binalik ko na yung tingin ko sa harapan ko. I wasn't looking at the road. Nagwa-wander kasi ang utak ko sa iba't-ibang bagay.
The emotion that can break your heart is sometimes the very one that heals it. It was what Dan said to me before we left the church. And by that, he only meant one thing: I should learn to love again.
Ang daling sabihin pero ang hirap gawin. But I'm definitely determined to get him out of my whole system. Especially in my heart.
After nilang malaman yung tungkol dun, I wonder what my reaction would be if I see him again. Dan said that I should learn to love again. It's impossible for that right now. But, I could use someone.
An escape goat. Panakip butas.
Bigla kong naisip sila Dan and the others. I immediately washed the thought out of my mind. I can't possibly do that. They're my friends. Hindi ko sila dapat idamay sa mga ganitong bagay. Siguro nga I'll be really bad if I'll do that. But I won't be that bad kung someone na hindi ko ganun ka close yung papatulan ko diba?
I shook my head softly. I'm going crazy! What in the world am I thinking??
"We're here." Jem said after a while.
Pulse. It's not the kind of club na open to all kasi dito, persons in the high society lang ang pwedeng makapasok. Kapag hindi ka member ng society na yun, as long as may kasama kang influential na person, makakapasok ka. Kagaya ng sa situation namin. I'm definitely not a member of the high society. But Michael, Lex, and Dan are. So damay kami.
"Wooo!" Jem cheered. Sobrang dami na ng tao pagdating namin. So hindi na ako nagtaka nung pumunta na agad sa dance floor sina Jem, Michael, at Lex. Naghanap naman kami ni Dan ng table. Someone escorted us then we ordered drinks after.
"I want to get wasted." I said while taking in my first glass of gin.
From the corner of my eyes, nakita kong umiling si Dan.
"What?" I asked.
He smirked. "Wasted? That wouldn't be a good idea. The last time you got drunk, nagpagulong-gulong ka sa daan. And you were blabbering things about doughnuts and sheeps and how ugly you thought I was."
Bigla ko namang naramdaman yung pamumula ng cheeks ko. "I-I'm sorry. Did I really call you ugly?" I don't remember saying such thing. I mean, Dan's really handsome. Super.
I had another glass of gin. He laughed.
"Yeah! Honestly, I was hurt! Parati mong sinasabi na gwapo ako, tapos bigla mo nalang akong sasabihan na pangit? Nasaktan ego ko nun." Then he laughed again.
