Anything For You

Part 29

The drive to the apartment was in complete silence except for the occasional 'left at the stop sign' or 'right at grey building'. Jenna huffed a few times to get Michaels attention but his eyes were fixed on the road in front of him.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the apartment." She tells him but Michael stays silent.

"Did you hear me?" she asks.

"Yep" his reply short.

"So you're going to ignore me then?"

"Yep"

"Oh come on Michael, I said I was sorry. I didn't keep it away from you on purpose. I just wasn't sure."

"Not sure about what exactly."

"I wasn't sure if you would want to be with me and if you kicked me out of your house then at least I will have a place to go to." Michael slammed on the brakes and parked in the first parking space he found.

"That is such bullshit Jenna and you know that." He yelled at her.

"How could you possibly think that after I told you that I love you? Is that what you think of me? That I would use you and then kick you out?" Michael was fuming but when she touched his hand his shoulders relaxed.

Michael's thoughts

This bullshit is pissing me off and I'm sick of it. If she wants to go then maybe she should just leave. I don't want her to go but she has to make a choice. I won't wait like a little puppy for my owner to come home.

"You have two options here, you either trust my love for you or we go our separate ways." I have a headache now shouting at her. I know I shouldn't but dammit this woman just pisses me off.

"I don't want to leave you. I want to stay with you and I want you to tell me to stay." She says softly and I feel like shit for shouting at her. "I just don't know how to be in a relationship." She adds and it infuriates me all over again.

"There, right there. That bullshit again! You're not even trying Jenna. You keep using 'not use to being in a relationship' as an excuse to get out of things with me." I'm yelling and using air quotes but I don't care. She's like a small child and I feel like the parent.

My knuckles are turning white as I grip the steering wheel; I need to calm the fuck down before I say something that I'll regret.

"I'm sorry okay. Instead of yelling at me, tell me what to do. I have been alone Michael, alone all my life and I honestly don't know what to do." Now she's yelling and my conversation with Candice comes to mind. She has been alone for years and I'm making it worse.

"I know. I'm sorry, I shouldn't be shouting at you. It just pisses me off when you keep things from me. I don't need this again." Even Devon knows more than what I do which makes it even worse.

"What do you mean again?" she asks and I didn't even think about what I just said. I don't want to bring Samantha into our relationship but it feels like I'm in it again with all the lying and secrets.

Fuck!!!

"I didn't mean that. I just don't like the lying and the secrets, I hate it."

"Are you talking about your relationship with Samantha? What did she do to you?" This is not what I wanted between us.

"This is not about my relationship with Samantha. Actually it is beyond irrelevant at the moment. This is about us, so don't change the subject." I'm speaking louder than I should but fuck if I care.