WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY AS A TEENAGER

An apology.

Hey everyone. Another session of heart to heart talk.

I would like to apologise for not following my eating plan for the past few days.

For the past few days, I havent been eating healthily. It may seem like a balance of unhealthy and unhealthy food, but I think Ive been eating more towards the unhealthy food again. I feel like Im slipping back into my old routine and the old mindset these days and its really time to stop dragging it and acknowledge the problem and solve it before it continues.

I havent been following my intermittent fasting period and giving in to eat before my fasting period. Thats my number one problem and probably the reason why I feel a little more lethargic during morning sessions these days. This is the first problem that I need to solve before anything gets worse, to get CONTROL over my eating period again. Stop making excuses for myself because I am the one that controls my life.

The second problem is going against my eating plan, for example eating food like bread, fried food, burgers, and drinking the Oreo frappe, which Im not supposed to. Its embarrassing how I know I created the eating plan to follow and yet Im going against it.

I shall stop creating excuses for myself stop and giving in to temptations and get back to setting a healthier environment for me (stop taking so much bread). But the main problem is me not following my eating plan and not getting control of myself.

Im sorry to myself – that I let myself fall back into my old unhealthy habits and mindset and disappoint myself. That I failed to constantly remind that eating healthily plays a bigger role that exercising in order to achieve my body goals. I've been creating excuses for myself to eat junk food because of exercise. Exercising is the only thing that Ive been maintaining, and Ive been telling myself: its okay to eat, youre exercising. But NO. 80% falls on eating habits and 20% falls on exercising.

I have been using braces as an excuse to eat anything I want to. Braces really limits my eating options because of the soreness it gives my mouth, but I have been depending on it to control the things I eat, timing and everything. THIS is reason why I am eating unconsciously these days! Letting braces do the work. Previously I thoughts braces would give further help in me getting my goal, but instead little did I realise until now that Ive been too dependent on it.

Lastly, I would like to say sorry to everyone that is reading this –- for that I created this book to inspire others and yet I am not doing well. I have been snacking too, without taking photos and it shows that Im not honest with my lifestyle. Ill not do it again.

This may seem like Im super sad, but Im just self-reflecting. And I feel much better now. For that I acknowledged the problem, didnt run away from it, and now Im going to solve it. I am going to take charge in my eating habits now. I am going to think before I act when facing food choices and facing an environment that doesnt offers healthier food options. I am going to take portion control more seriously and create a mindset – to listen to my body and what it truly needs – the nutrients! It is okay to give myself a break, once in awhile like 1 day for every 2 weeks. Im really glad that I acknowledged this problem – its the first step to attainting a healthier mindset, because I feel really happy right now.

Let the past be the past, the future is in our hands.