How's it been going with you guys? Hopefully everything is good on your end. Have you found a way to forget everything? Have you discovered a way on how to not feel pain?
I guess I did.
After being conscious about myself, after reflecting out of all the things I've done...I think I'm finally shattered.
I can't pity myself anymore.
I can't see what's wrong and what's right.
I can't seem to remember what I'm doing right about now here in the present.
I forgot everything. Everything I felt. Everything I thought of. I was hurt? I was annoyed at myself? I hated myself? Well, these days...I hardly feel anything like that at all. And I don't think I cured my own illness at all. Because all that was left was anger, annoyance and frustration.
I wasn't angry at myself anymore.
I was literally...angry at everyone. I don't know when. I don't know how. But everything, even the little things starts to annoy me.
The teachers. My classmates. My relatives. My parents. Sometimes, even my friends.
I blamed everything on them.
I didn't care about anything anymore and was just flowing along.
I didn't know what I wanted at all.
I just seemed...lost and into pieces.
Why? I don't know.
All I know is that this is different from what I've been feeling then.
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