Meeting Marshall Mathers: The Slim Shady Era

Chapter 73

We sat quietly and watched the tv after he'd put his girls to bed. Well I say watch but it was more like having something to stare at so the silence didn't feel so tense.
I didn't really know what to say in such a heated situation, I had no place to say anything, but I didn't want him to think that I didn't care,

"Man, I can't believe this..." He cut the tension and sighed,
"We planned on givin' our daughter a great normal life with both parents, but in the end, look at this" He rubbed down his cheek, he looked drained,

"Marshall, whatever life throws at you both at the end of the day you're both still in their lives, maybe not together but you try your best to make it work..." I put my hand on his thigh, "And, you know, you can't help prevent them being hurt by their mother, you can only protect them from so much"

"But it shouldn't be this way. They don't need that shit. They're too young to know what the fucks goin' on, well, they're gettin' wiser and it scares me, I'm not sittin' here no more, as soon as I wake up tomorrow I'm fighting for full motherfuckin' custody again and they ain't shit anyone can say to me to try and stop me, I don't give a fuck..."

"Absolutely. I think it'll fall into your hands, she's no leg to stand on"

"I know. It really gets to me that no matter how hard I try to stop them from being hurt and how hard I try to protect them I feel like I'm always failing, this happens too often. All i wanted was to make a good, comfortable, stable life for my the girls, but after everythin' we goin' through I'm all alone in this home savouring all the memories I got of 'em instead of spendin' every wakin' moment watchin' 'em grow. From birth to present, I mean damn, Hailie an Laney are so much closer together that it feels as though Laney is my daughter, well I guess she is, but, then.. there's Whitney, I seen her a couple times, I ain't really got too close 'cause I mean, how she came about I ain't fuckin' happy with but, I don't want that lil' girl growing into that fucked up family with Kim an that fuckin' pussy punk she's with, you know?"

"Of course" I nodded,
"What counts is that you're fighting for your daughters, don't focus on Kim"

"Yea" he nodded,
"I can only comfort them for so long though, you know what I mean?"

"I know, but she'll come back, there's no way she can leave three of her own children"

"I hope she don't come back, I hope she gets fuckin' shot up or fuckin' thrown under a bus left to rot the fuck out so I can take my kids and never see that sad fuckin' expression on their faces again all because she's drugged outta her mind or pissed up in some club with some other dude waitin' on dickin' her" he clenched his jaw,

"Look just.. Don't worry on it tonight, there's nothing right now that you can do, and they're here, safe and with you" I slipped my hand into his,

"Yeah.. Yea you right" he yawned, and squeezed my hand,

"Plenty of sleep for you tonight" I smiled,

"When've I ever got a good nights sleep Jodie?" He grinned weakly,

"You're always napping around the house" I cocked a brow,

"Nah, anyway I don't think I be needing sleep right now" his hand slipped out of mine and onto my thigh, I watched his hand go up with a blushing smile,

"What about the rule?" I bit in my bottom lip, tingles going through my chest,

"What rule?" his eyes went all wide as he edged his lips closer to my neck,

"No sex when there's sleeping lions?" I softly chuckled as his kisses tickled my senses, I shut up as he mounted his self on top of me, now both locking lips as I ran my hand up his top... Our breaths grew deeper and that sexy little groan he'd do soon began as he put his hands around and down the back of my jeans, gripping my butt and squeezing it harder with the more excited he got,