my life has gone to complete shit in the past two days. i swear this shit happens every week. this week is so much though. i rolled a blunt. i need it honestly. i lit it and inhaled it, then exhaled. i sighed letting everything out of me. i closed my eyes smoking the whole thing. i opened up the windows airing out the smell. this will kick in before i know it. i opened snapchat and started responding to some people. it's been weird going on there after my nudes were leaked to the whole school but it passed by fast. well people don't talk to me about it at least. the group hasn't talked to me after they found out who i sent them too. i figured i should give them a break. i should really talk to chance, i wonder how he's doing. he doesn't hate me.. well he did put weed into my bag making me get suspended for three days. whatever. i facetimed him. he picked up and smiled. he looks fucked out of his shit.
maddie; hey chance!
chance; what are you calling for sexy beast? your tits look good right now.
i smiled and laughed.
maddie; come over, i want you.
his eyes widen and he got up fast.
chance; i mean, okay.
i ended the call and got ready for him to come over. i shaved everything and made sure i was alllll cleaned up. i put on a cropped tank top with no bra on and some spandex. it felt like forever but chance finally arrived. he pushed me against my wall and started kissing me aggressively. i took his shirt off, placing my hands on his abs. he picked me up and threw me on my bed. that caused me to laugh. he smirked while he took off my shirt. he started grabbed my breast and started massaging them. i moaned while i grabbed his hair. he kissed me slowly. he started dry humping me.
maddie; fuck me, right now.
he bit his lip at me.
chance; say my name.
maddie; fuck me right now daddy.
he smirked and took off my spandex then pulled down his pants and shoved his dick into me. i moaned loudly. he went fast and hard.
- the next day -
my eyes slowly opened as i looked around my room. what happened last night? god i must have been so out of it. i got out of my bed and ouch. now i remember what happened. my dumbass was horny and got my shit fucked out of by chance. i shook my head. don't smoke a lot alone, noted. i grabbed my phone and went downstairs.
mom; you fucking whore.
i looked up at her with disgust on my face.
maddie; what the fuck mom?
mom; you're a whore! i heard you fucking another guy last night. all you do is hook up with guys. who will it be tonight!?
i cant believe what she's saying right now. i never cared if she knew i had sex but this is.. unacceptable.
maddie; i can't fucking believe you.
mom; get the fuck out of here. you're a disappointment to my life. you suck at everything madison.
i stormed upstairs and started packing my bags with clothes and shit i needed. i'm so mad i cant even fucking cry. i opened my window and left then called anthony. please please answer. i started sobbing. i cant believe she would say that to me.
anthony; hello?
maddie; anthony.
i choked out but just began sobbing more.
anthony; madison, what's wrong?
he asked panicked.
anthony; do you need me to come get you?
maddie; yes, i'm at my house.
i cried out. fuck, i'm such a pussy. stop fucking crying! i bit my lip trying to act strong. i took deep breathes. within minutes i saw anthony's car pull up. he got out quickly and ran to me. he looked concerned, why would he not be honestly?
anthony; are you okay?
i shook my head and took a deep breath.
maddie; c-can we just.. get in the car?
i said while not being able to look at him. if i did i would lose it all. he nodded and held my hand. he opened the passenger door for me. i got in a sat down, he closed the door then went to the driver side and got in. he started driving.
anthony; madison, you have to tell me what's happening. i'm freaking out over here.
i sighed then all those tears just came out. i sobbed into my hands. he placed his hand on my thigh and his thumb slowly rubbed it. i cried harder knowing i fucked up with chance. i don't deserve anthony right now.
maddie; i'm sorry.
i cried out. he shushed my for apologizing. at this point honestly i'm just crying because of every fucking thing that has happened to me. we got to his house and he hugged from his seat. i hugged back, crying into his shoulder. we pulled away after a while.
anthony; what's wrong, mad dog?
i gave a small smile.
maddie; everything. my mom called me a disappointment to her life and kicked me out. everything at school and just.. everything.
i looked away from anthony and rubbed my eyes.
anthony; i'm so sorry madison. she has no right to say that. she doesn't understand what you go through.
maddie; anthony, i start everything fucking thing i go through. i fuck everything up.
anthony; don't say that, you're perfect to me. you're gonna stay here with me. your mom doesn't deserve you, you're bigger and better than that. you have me and we'll get through all of this together. okay, maddie?
i didn't say anything for a little. i disagree with everything he's saying. i don't deserve his amazing self at all.
maddie; okay.
anthony; okay. lets go inside and you can shower or take a bath if you want. i'll talk to my mom while you do that.
i nodded. thank you anthony.
