A.D.D.I.C.T [h.f.t)

32.

"What the hell was that?" I scream and he smirks, clearly amused that he hit a nerve. "I mean that's my parents and you decided to tell them that we are dating, when we clearly aren't." I continue on venting as he doesn't reply. It takes him a few minutes to actually reply, "Clearly?" is all he manages to say, although it feels like I have asked him millions. "Well yes, we have never discussed it. Plus you don't date." The look on his face says it all, he now looks disappointed and not in me as he isn't looking towards me but with himself as he looks at the floor.

"I guess your right, I don't date but I like you Emerson." He replies and moves his gaze up towards me ".. and I thought that you felt the same way." I look him in the eyes, not knowing how to respond but deep down I do know how I feel and what I want, I just wish it didn't happen like this. "I do but we need to talk about this, I mean are you really sure that you want to be with me and not just 'fuck' buddies." I know it was a little harsh but I never thought that he would ever like me enough to date me, I have thought about it but never let it out in the open because at the time, I knew that he would just laugh in my face and maybe that is what I should have done in the first place. I should of made it funny, a joke and in that way he would of gone along with it and my parents wouldn't be believing a lie.

"Em, you should know by now that I am addicted to you and I can't seem to get away from you. I want more than just sex from you. Yeah ill admit that to begin with, that was all I wanted but not anymore." I shift uncomfortably as we are both still at the end of my bed and our feet are on the floor, I guess he has been thinking about this, just like me but what will happen to us if we move on and decide to be together. What we had, still have is fun and I don't want it to fade away, Kyle has never came across as someone who takes anything seriously but now he is telling me all these things. All the right things and I don't know what I want anymore. "So?" He adds in as I haven't replied, instead I'm sat here in silence but still looking at him.

"I like you Kyle but I don't know what I want. I mean I thought you didn't like me the way I like you and it has never really crossed my mind that you would ever want to date me. We are so different and yet we clicked from the moment we met. Although you were rude to me most of the time, I still saw a part of you that you didn't like to show but you showed it to me. Why did you?" I ask him, I need to know the answer because if I don't, how can I make my mind up.

"I opened up to you more than the others because you are different than them and I thought that you would get me. It turned out that you did and the more time we spent together, the more I realised that you make me be myself. I like that I feel comfortable and I don't need to act a certain way to get your attention. However, if you ever tell a soul about this - I will of course have to deny it." He says with a smirk.

"I guess I am the best girl you have ever met, but on a more serious level. Do you really want me to be your girlfriend? Won't I crush your reputation?" As soon as those words leave my lips, I regret asking them. He takes my hand which I didn't expect, "Yes you really are and that is no joke. I would not have told your parents that I was your boyfriend, if I didn't want to call you mine and how can you ruin my reputation, I'll still be the same but slightly better with you by my side - plus our friends like you anyway."

"Okay." Is all I can manage to say, everything that Kyle has told me is something I never thought I would hear from him. "Okay?" he questions, "Okay as in yes I will be your girlfriend."