Forever Changed

Chapter 11

I walked to my room and found that my phone was vibrating. I picked it up and saw an unknown number. I usually don't answer the phone to unknown numbers but today I thought I should. "Hello." I said. 

"Hey Sarah, it's me Alex." 

"Oh hey. Do you need anything?" I asked wondering how he got my phone number. 

"Um yeah, listen I would want to know if you would want to go to church tonight?" he asked. 

"Tonight? But it's Saturday."  

"Yeah we have youth service on Saturday night. Its always fun. So with that being said would you want to come?" he asked. Should I go? I mean the last time I went I left crying. Nothing really happened. All I promised to Kayla that I would go on Wednesday and that's all. But I did promise her something else: that I would sing for the church. And maybe I can ask the pastor if I can do that and I guess the only way I can ask is if I go. So I guess I'm going. 

"Sarah?" asked Alex. 

"Huh? Oh yeah I'll go." I said. 

"Great. So I'll see you later." 

"Yeah, see you later." I said and hung up the phone. I laid on my bed then a thought accrued in my head: what time does it start? I got up and went to the living room and saw my parents reading the bible. "Mom? Dad?" they both looked up from the bible. 

"Yes honey."said my dad. 

"What time does church start today?" 

"Service starts at 8 o'clock pm. Why?" asked my dad. 

"Because I want to go." I said. 

"Oh. That's great." said my mom. I left and went to my bedroom I looked at the clock and saw that it said 5:56 pm. I had a lot of time so I went and laid on my bed. I thought about last night. After I went to the canal, I stayed there for about thirty minutes crying. Then mom and dad picked me up. I didn't know why I went there. Its a place that had bad memories.  

I slowly started to fall asleep. My eyes slowly drifted closed and I dream the nightmare that has come true. I dreamt of Kayla dying. Then I dreamt about Kayla screaming at me and telling me why I let her die. Then I dreamt of her at Carlo's party. She was making out with the guys that she was making out when the party did happen. Then he grabbed her hand and lead her somewhere I was following. But then I felt someone shake me. I opened my eyes and saw my mom standing over me. "Hurry up and get change if your going to church." mom said. I looked at her confused then remembered the I was suppose to go to church. I looked at the clock and it said 7:47. I sprang out of bed took a quick shower. Changed into my gray, black, and white tank top with my dark skinny jeans and put on my red converse to add some color. I let my hair fall into my natural curls but I did do a small french braid on the side of my head. When I left my room I went down stairs to see my dad waiting for me. And he seemed undressed. "Aren't you guys going too?" I asked. 

"No this is youth service." he said. 

"Oh." I said a little disappointed. I didn't want to by myself. Even though my parents don't go to the youth service, just the thought of having them there at church was reassuring. But they aren't going to stay with me all the time. It is hard to get over the fact that I had always had some with me for a long time. Now that Kayla is gone I don't really have anybody to count on as I used to. Jessica she was there but she never really paid attention to me only to her self, not saying that I don't mind but sometimes it's nice to be thought of too.  

Think about all this brought tears to my eyes. I pushed them back and thought that Kayla would want me to keep going and live my dream. The problem is what is my dream? There is nothing that I really want to be. Yeah, singing is something that love to do even though I just discover that I can sing only a few days ago but I don't know if I want to be a professional singer. My dad saw the tears in my eyes and came to hug me. "Honey if you want us to go we can." he said.