Alyssa buney Daniels
I sat on my bed with the pills in my hands questioning should I go through with it?
"Fuck it" I mumbled and took the cap off of the bottle, poured the pills in my hand and popped the into my mouth. Do I regret it? Nope! I grabbed the bottle water and drunk down the water and cried myself to sleep. When I opened my eyes everything was black. I wasn't scared, I was stuck.
"Fuck is you doin here? " I turned around and seen my dad.
"I didn't wanna be there anymore. " I tried pleading with him. Although I was happy to see him I was scarred because he looked hurt. " I was so tired of being put through stuff that I didn't ask for. "
"You remeber I told you I never stopped loving you? " he said coming closer.
"Yes, but your not there physically. I have all these problems and your not there to take them away! "
"I've always been there love bug, you gotta stay strong. You got to go through the hard shit to get your blessing. " he said hugging me. I don't know how but I turned back into the little four year old I was before he died. He made that happiness that I thought died a long time ago return
"I wanna stay with you…" I said crying
"Trust and believe I want you too but it ain't yo time baby." He lifted my head up and kisses my forehead right before saying "love you bug" then pushing me into the darkness. I woke up gasping like I had just got out of some water only to realize that I was in the hospital. I turned to see dani and Chris sleep In a chair. Then I turned my head to the other side to see who was holding my hand and it was august. He had his head on the bed while sitting in a chair holding my hand sleep. I guess none of them heard me because they was still sleep.
The door opened and woke everyone up while I just sat there.
"Oh my god" my momma yelled when she seen me. All of their heads turned my way and rushed to hug me. Everyone except august said something and I could tell something was on his mind.
"Hey can y'all excuse me for a minute I need to talk to august real quick. " they looked between us and nooded theirs and left. I looked over to him and just stared. Why was he even here? He made it clear he doesn't care and neither do it.
"Why'd ya do it... " his voice came out raspy.
"Now isn't the time to talk about this. " I said turning over on my side.
" was it because of me?"
I stayed quiet hoping he didn't hear me cry, the last thing I wanted to do is seem weak infront of him. For a minute we didn't say anything but I couldn't help but to ask how the hell did I get here.
"August."
He looked up at me but stayed quiet.
"How did I get here? "
"Dani sent me a screenshot of y'all conversation but I had came over to apologize to you and when I didn't hear anyone I knew it was something wrong. I opened the door and seen ya moms passed out on the couch and made my way to ya room. I kept calling ya name but I took it as you was mad at me so I came into yo room and seen the empty pill bottle. I grabbed you and put you in my car drove here, after that I texted everybody and waited till you woke up
I just sat there because now it's time to tell him. I already know he's gone make me so I got prepared.
