Alyssa B. Daniels
This morning I woke up extra early to get some pregnancy tests. If I was pregnant I honestly wouldn't know how to tell him without him thinking I tried to set him up. Walking into the Walgreens I walked right to the pregnancy isle and stopped in front of the tests. I looked around at the boxes before I picked one up looked closely at it. I walked to the cash register and gave it to the young lady behind it. Once I got my things and paid I walked out of the store. Right when I got in the car august called.
"Hey baby" i answered
"Wassam baybeh whea you at love".
"I went to the store had to get some stuff, is mama them up?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"Yeah she cooked breakfast fa ya but we gotta y'all when you get home."
"Ight babe I'll be home in twenty"
"Ight"
He hung up the phone and I continued my drive home. My manager sent me some link to listen to so I clicked on it and let it start playing through the speakers. The beat played till it got to her part.
"Bittersweet, Beetlejuice
Bitter me, how sweet of you to
Ask if I'd be your muse
And go and paint me blue
You turned my one of one
To our one of two
On Jamaica Avenue getting it tattooed 'cause
You make me feel what
No other man could do
Lust and desire
You lure me to the flame near your fire
You call me Miss Mariah then say
With your last name it might sound a little nicer
He got game, sister
And he always wanna play, sister
It seems so strange that I love him
He gon' drive me insane
You gon' be the one to take me to my grave mister
'Cause you'll lie to my face
And then you'll say that, "Even Jesus forgave"
Then we'll drive to your place
And you'll make love to me
While we're listening to Blonde by Frank
Put on that Godspeed, like you a god send
And I'll bask in every single moment
Then you'll take me to the peak of your mountain
And then you'll tell me to drink from your fountain"
Dancing to the music I pulled up in the drive way of my home. Thinking about it I might wanna move, I have so much memories in this house that I wanna make new ones in a new house with August and the babies. I hid the test in my purse and got out of the car with the music still playing. August opened the door and smiled at me.
"What you do?" I looked at him crazy and paused the music.
"Why it always gotta be me doin somethin crazy baybeh" he showed that breath taking smiled.
"Cause you always do that look when you do"
"Well I ain't do nun " he stepped to the side and let me in then closed the door behind me. I walked in to the kitchen to see my momma fussing at the twins because they kept throwing food at her. I laughed which brung their attention to me.
"Uh uh sit down till y'all eat all dat food" August said from behind me and they listened. To be honest I loved the fact that he got power over them unlike me. I could never tell my babies no.
"Hey momma." I said.
"Hey baby, where'd you go this morning?" She asked while wiping the food off her.
"Store I had to get some stuff."
"Oh okay well um August told me we had to talk so should we go to the living room?" We walked to the couch and sat down.
"I wanted to start off by saying I'm truly sorry for how I treated you in the past and I don't deserve you or to have any beautiful kids like y'all in my life but I hope you can forgive me."
I nodded my head letting her know I was listening to what she was saying. But what I don't understand is how she is sitting here in my face when the doctors said she was dead. My mother died five years ago so how is my mother...sitting here...in my face. She was in the middle of talking to August but I blocked that out. It was like the world was spinning and wouldn't stop.
