I strongly advise y'all to listen to this song while reading this chapter y'all gone be feelin some typa way
-eya ❤️❤️
Alyssa B.Daniels
I sat there looking at his phone.
please don't let what i think this is be true, please God you brung him to me/ you gave me him please just don't let him do what i think this is. plea-
his phone rang again. this time i tried to make my voice sound like his.
" wassam ma" i said holding the phone up to my ear while walking to dani room. me and him grew up in NOLA so of course we gone have the same accent and when your around aug you start to talk like him.
"daddy when you gone come over, mommy needs you" the girl whined on the phone. i pulled it away from my ear and looked at it.
"this cant be, nahh he wouldn't do this "i thought in my head.
" nahh ma you got the wrong numba baybeh." i said on the edge of tears.
"august, come on stop playin and get over here." then she hung up and i started to cry.
all the times he said he was with miracle he wasn't, he was out cheating, i told him everything. all the times he lied about going to school he was in her house fucking....her, and to make it worse he lied to me and slept with her this morning and then allowed me to give myself to him in the same day. he lied to me.
I stopped crying and got myself together and walked out dani's room with his phone in my hand and sat on the couch. he took a minute in the bathroom and now i know why, i'v been hurt so many times and he knew this. the emotions that was rushing through my body was like fire. it got to the point where i was hopping off the couch and walking into my room to pack up my things. i couldn't stay in that house any longer. how do i learn not to feel so useless when all this stuff keeps happening to me? why do this shit keep happening to me, i feel so trapped like i just can't move or breath anymore.
after i got a few clothes in my bag i left the house and began my journey to miracle and mikes home. i walked there because at this point i feel like i just wanted be alone, i have no body else, dani and chris is gone to visit her mother and august is no longer in the picture but i hated the fact that i had all this love for him. I wanted to hate him so bad that it got to the point where i just wanted him to die. i was so wrapped up in my mind that i didn't realize i was standing in front of miracle and crying mu-mu. i looked up at her with her hand over her mouth and she quickly hugged my wet body, i looked up at the sky and notice that it was raining hard. i let go the tears and hurt that i was carrying around. she quickly brung me into the house which i was faced with mike and his sister. they looked like they was sad for me but i didn't want their sympathy. miracle brung me upstairs to a extra guess room and left me there. i just sat on the bed and cried, i was so tired of being done wrong when all i do is try to make sure everyone was okay after a while i got up and went into the bathroom. i turned on the hot water and put on hard place by H.E.R. i stripped out of my clothes and stepped in the hot shower and stud under it. crying was all i could muster up to do.
after i was done i stepped out with the towel around my body and walked out to the dark room. i put on my matching panties and bra and crawled under the cover and cried, H.E.R. still played on repeat which made it even harder because everything she said felt real. i slowly felt myself slipping into sleep.
