I woke up that morning feeling like the world was on top of me. Why does all the bad shit happen to me. I didn't ask for this shit. After looking in the mirror for about 30 minutes I decided to take my shower. Standing under the water made me feel like I was alone in my own world, where no one could hurt me. After I got out of the shower I grabbed my phone and started playing phases by pretty much.
I'm really ti'ed of being soft spoken you got me broken writing songs bout you daily and it's messin with my focus. I sang along with the song untill my phone started ringing.
"Hey dani "
"Hey love I'm outside"
I looked out side and sure enough. There she was. "Why the he'll you outside my home" I asked while looking out the window.
"Just open up the damn door girl. " then she hung up. I rushed down stair hoping my momma wasn't her and she wasn't. I opend the door but she wasn't the only one here, so was chris and August.
"Who. The. Hell. Told y'all to. Come over? "
"Girl cut the attitude you know you happy to see our asses" chris said.
Instead of replying I just led them up to my room.
"Stay here and don't move or leave out this room okay. " "Didn't know you was our momma damn" chris said. Dani elbowed him," okay love we'll stay here love."
I just looked at August, wondering how you come in my house and not speak but I just decided to leave it alone and walkes into the bathroom and finished getting ready
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satisfied with my look I had to take a picture because I was feelin myself. Once I came out the bathroom dani and chris gassed me up and of course I started feelin myself.
"Ight man y'all ready" August said with an attitude.
I chucked, the fuck was his problem? I just ignored it because I was feelin good. Everyone got up and left out of the room. I made sure I had everything before walking out and locking up.
"Hurry yo ass up damn" August yelled out of the window. I slowly turned around towards him and yelled "who the fuck you talkin to? "
"The only one dat ain't in this fucking car the fuck"
You gotta be fuckin kidding me, I know he ain't talking to me like he fuckin crazy.
"Then leave the hell I ain't stopping you" and after that he left. I just caught the bus because I don't let nobody but my momma talk to me like that. Once it was my stop I got out and walked pass dani, chris, and august. I woildnt give him the satifaction of seeing me mad. Once i got into the school and to my locker i got stopped by someone. I turned around to a light skinned gorgeous man, looked like he was six feet tall, curly hair, puffy soft pink lips, muscles and very beautiful eyes.
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"yes?" I asked him confused
"I just wanted to tell you your very beautiful" he said smiling.
"Thanks and your name is.."
"Jacob"
"Alyssa" I said smiling back at him. Just when I thought I had something good going on August walked over and put his arm around me.
"She good you can gone now" Jacob left and I knew I was past mad, I was at the point that someone was gonna die. I pushed him off me and started Angrily started putting my stuff in my bag.
"Fuck is yo problem? "
" you, you come back in my life thinking everything is all good between us, bitch you forgot you bullied my ass so excuse me if I don't listen to the bullshit you gotta say."
He grabbed my arm and pulled me into a room. He had my hands above my head looking at me, I could tell he was mad. "Stop fucking talking to me like you fuckin stupid. Allat attitude shit cut it out, and call me a bitch one more fucking time and ima show yo ass betta den I can tell you. " he let my arms go and then walked out.
I sat there trynna figure out what the hell just happened. After I got myself together I walked to my next class. For the whole day I kept my head down not saying nothing to nobody. When he did that it brung unwanted memories.
It was the end of the day, I left the school as soon as it was over. Walking home I had time to think about life. Mother hates me, got raped, everyone hates me… life wasn't worth it.
From:lyssa To:dani ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Hey um I've been thinking and I wanted to thank you for the love you showed me and um… I wanna say goodbye.
After I sent that I entered the house, seen my momma passed out drunk on the couch. And went upstairs and locked the door.
My phone ranged but I didn't answer I just went into the bathroom grabbed some pills, and walked back to my room. Tonight's the last night.
