Alyssa buney Daniels
It's been two weeks since I've been in the hospital. Apperantly im on suicide watch for the next three days or in their words seventy-two hours. August has been here everyday even missing school for me, dani and Chris comes to see me when they get out of school and my mother left the day she seen me.
"Mamas" august said softly.
"Hm? "
"Whats goin on wit' chu? " he said finally bringing his eyes up to meet mines.
I sighed and turned to my body was faced Torwards him. I can see that he was crying before. I really put him through some shit and it's starting to take a tol on me.
" why you been crying? "
"Dats not da question. " he said very calmly
" and you ain't getting and answer until I get mines. "
"What da fuck happen to you? "
I realized I couldn't hide it from him any longer it was time to tell him.
" look I don't want you to do anything stupid to ruin your life over me. " he just looked at me like he was gonna explode outta anger.
"Promise me... " I said
"Promise"
I sat back on the bed and looked at my shaking hands.
" so um... A couple of weeks ago I got raped. A teacher asked be to stay after school to talk to me." I took a deep breath to keep myself from cryin. "A-and at the time I didn't think nothing of it because he was my support system and was technically all I had since my momma wasn't mentally here." He kept quiet letting me know he was listening and to continue. " and I came in his room ready to talk about what ever it was that was important and I seen him get up and close the door. I didn't understand why because we normally keep the door open so it sent off signs but I didn't move. And when he came closer he grabbed me the same way you did but worse than that." I said letting some tears fall, I kept my head down to afraid to see his reaction. " and I tried to fight him off but he was too strong and I sat there and got raped. " I busted in to a face full of tears.
"And you'n tell nobody" he said quietly.I shook my head no. He sighed and got up. I thought he was finna leave but he sat on the bed with me and held me. I just cried because what else could I do?
"Mamas" he said quietly. " you strong as hell, you done been through some shit but you still survived it. God is test'n you, and you gone get through it ight"he said wiping my face . I noded to let him know I was listening.
"You okay? " I asked seeing he had bags under his eyes.
"Yea mamas, just tired das all."
I made him lay his head in my lap and played in his hair.
"I'm sorwy fa real.. I'n mean ta put ya thru dat shit, I'm going thru sum shit of my own and i'n got nobody I ca tturn to." I just continued to play in his hair til we both fell asleep.
August A.Alsina
No words ca describe wha I felt when I seen ha. It was like da luh of ma life was gone, when I rushed ha to da hospital da docta's and nurses came rushing towards ha and shit just pushin me back. I sat in a chair waiting for dani and Chris to pick up and when they did they rushed hea. I guess we all eachothers got at dis point. She's all I got. Y'all may think dat it's too soon but I always loved dis gurl and I ain't lettin ha go. Yea I was a bully to ha but dats because I didn't kno how to tell ha dat a yung nigga was feelin ha, then deal wit these young girls trynna fight ha so I just messed wit ha to make sure ain't nobody else messed wit ha. Growing up all I had was ma brother mel and trav. And they always useda tease me fa liking ha. One day they made me go talk to ha, and ya kno I did.
