Hey, it's been like years since I wrote in this book. Sorry for that.
But hey you know what...I just cried suddenly one night while going through random sht. Just realising how dumb and stupid I was back then and now.
Like how ignorant I am with how other people think about me and their feelings. Like how I'm changing and that I'm not getting any better as a person, daughter and friend. Like how I just want to give up on studying and that I know that I shouldn't.
I really am stupid. I act like I don't exactly know what's going on but I have a clue of what does happen. But I choose to ignore it. Back then I really didn't know but now I do. Please, just be upfront with me. I may be a bit judgmental but I will try to understand everything. It will take me time but I will get over everything.
Kasi ano ba naman ang magagawa ko? Magiintay na lng ako gumaling lahat? Na ayos lng ang lahat, at wala akong gagawin?
Tanga ko talaga. Pag sa dami ko ng mali dati, parang inuulit ko ng lng lahat eh. Pwede ba gumising na lng ako at mag-ayos sa buhay ko. Hindi sa kung ano ano.
Ayo ko na maging ganto ang maramdaman ko. Ayo ko magsabi sa mga magulang kasi baka kung ano naman ang sabihin nila. Ayo ko naman kung sino ang sabihan ko ng mga nararamdaman kasi baka mag mukang ewan.
Ayaw ko na mag plastik o peke ang gawin ko. Gusto ko lng talaga ay mag-aral at maging masaya sa buhay. Pag sa dinadami kong ginagawang problema, nawala na ako.
Pag naka tingin ako kung saan, pag nakatulala lng ako. Baka may iniisip lng ako o baka naman pagod lng ako. Pero please, kahit minsan man lng, tingnan n'yo kung hindi ako umiiyak😂
Yun lng, tagal ko na nga hindi nag update dito. Ganito pa yung inuna kong isulat.
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A Life to Live
Ngẫu nhiênHey guys, so technically this is a public journal. I tell what I'm feeling or how I'm doing. I may not update much but I'll try to update at least once a month.
